Page 77 of Rayzor: Tell Me It’s Mine II

“You sure that’s what you want?”

“I’m sure it’s what I need. I like this balance we got going on.”

She smirked. “Let me find out I’m the biggest.”

“The largest.”

“Okay, but you gotta ask me again.”

I went around to her side and scooted into the seat next to her. I grabbed her hand. “Suki, I like ya, and I want ya.” I joked.

She giggled bashfully.

“So, can we give this shit a try? Wanna be my ole’ lady?”

She leaped at me, throwing her arms around my neck.

“Of course I will, because you know niggas don’t play ‘bout their ole’ ladies.” She giggled.

With everything going on, we agreed not to tell our people yet. They’ll find out how they find out. I wasn’t ready to hear what that foolish shit sounded like out loud. I was already feeling it on the inside. Maybe a nigga was scared, but I knew that sooner or later we were going to take shit there.

I ate breakfast, then ate her on top of the table. That relationship shit must’ve unlocked something. I don’t even eat pussy like that. Maybe a few times before, but I wanted to do it to her. She made a puddle underneath her asscheeks. Suki had been inside my fucking head for too long. Shit, it seemed right to lock her ass down.

When I took her to the bedroom, she was breathing heavier than a mothafucka. I gazed down at her, thinking about the shift. One minute we were arguing, the next we were grieving, and now, we were finally together. None of our shit was orthodox. I liked that about us.

She begged for me as I went into her raw. She begged for me to take it slow, but shit, we’d been taking things slow long enough. This pussy came without limits now. It even felt different than before. Suki even looked at me different too.

Afterward, she lay on my chest. Her breathing calmed as we passed a blunt back and forth. Neither of us said shit. I think we were both in our heads. The atmosphere was different– calmer. Peaceful. We’d made a crazy ass commitment but fuck it. What’s the worst that could happen?

* * *

We had to check in with security to get clearance to enter the fucking gate. They had that mothafucka locked down like Fort Benning. I don’t blame him after everything that went down.

Rayzor met us at the door. He and Suki hugged and he sent her inside the house.

“Any word on Levi?”

“Hell nah, and this shit about to make me lose it. I wanna leave but wanted to wait until you and Suki got here.”

My boy looked like he had a rough night. His eyes were low and red. He was clean, in different clothes than yesterday, but yesterday was still on him in a different way. His voice was dry.

“Shit, she’s here now. I’m ready when you are,” I said.

“I need to get Levi home. Whenever I find the mothafucka that did this, they gon’ wish death found them before I did.”

Eris barely slept. I had a doctor come by and give her medicine because she was on edge and crying since yesterday. My family was fucking torn apart. Erin was in her room crying herself to sleep. She was also on medicine because she had a couple of anxiety attacks.

I felt like I was losing control of the life around me.

My son was fucking missing. He was fine when we left him a few days ago. We had just spoken to him, then I got a call he’s missing. How the fuck did that happen? I kept replaying the conversation we had with him, seeing if anything was out of the ordinary. I couldn’t find anything. He was chipper, talkative, and ready to do whatever him and Rhea had planned.

The house had a heavy presence in it. His room was empty. All you heard through the silence was sniffles from either Eris or Erin crying. I stayed up all night making calls and shit without having to leave Eris’s side. This had made her physically ill. She was throwing up most of the night as well.

The fact that I couldn’t put my hands on anybody yet had me ready to spiral. I wanted to choke Rhea’s ass out, but that wouldn’t do any good because she has more answers than we did. I didn’t wanna believe she did something to Levi. She was a jealous, hating ass mothafucka, but she loved him just like Suki did.

She cried just like they did. She was the one who called the police. I didn’t put shit past anybody, but what the fuck happened? I blamed her for letting him out of her sight, but that was an oxymoron. I also left him in the backyard a time or two to run in the house, make a call or just to step away for a quick minute because I knew he was safe.

Suki was coming back in the hall after checking on Erin.