Page 1 of Crown of Thorns

Chapter one

The Clean Life

Renny

The mare was down when I got there.

Five forty-two in the morning, January black, the field frozen hard enough to feel it through my boots. The O'Brien boy had left the voicemail at half four — voice cracking, seventeen years old and watching nine hundred kilograms of Connemara crossbreed thrash in the mud. Colic. Probably displacement. I'd told him to walk her if she'd stand, keep her moving, don't let her roll.

She hadn't stood.

I dropped my kit in the grass and went to my knees beside her. Cold soaked through the denim instantly — that bone-deep January cold that doesn't negotiate, just takes. I found the barrel of her abdomen, palpating through the muscle wall. Tight. Distended on the right. She groaned — a low, wet sound that vibrated through my palms and up into my wrists — and her eye rolled white when I shifted her head. I held it there, my hand on her jaw, fingers hooked behind the mandible where the pulse ran hot against the cold, until her breathing settled into something I could work with.

"How long has she been down?"

"An hour. Maybe more. She was grand at midnight feed—"

"Get me warm water. A bucket, not a kettle. And ring Dr. Connolly — tell him I need the nasogastric tube from the surgery. The long one."

The boy ran. I stayed. Just me and the mare and the kind of quiet that only exists before dawn in Galway, when the sea is a low hum beyond the headland and the frost makes everything sharper — edges, sounds, the smell of sick horse and wet earth and something metallic underneath that meant blood in the gut. I peeled off one glove and pressed my bare hand against her flank. The skin radiated heat, the abdomen rigid with distress. Heart rate high but not critical. She had time. I had hands.

Connolly arrived with the nasogastric tube at six. I worked her through it. Mineral oil through the tube, slow and steady, my arm braced against her neck to keep the angle right while the wind cut across the field and turned my exposed fingers numb. She fought me twice — head tossing, legs scrabbling against the frozen ground — and I held both times, leaning my weight into her shoulder, talking low. Not words. Just sound. The mare didn't need language. She needed someone who wasn't afraid of the size of her pain.

Connolly brought the truck up at six fifteen, headlights cutting the dark like a surgical lamp across an operating field. By then, the obstruction had shifted. I felt it go — a release in the gut wall, the mare's whole body unlocking like a held breath finally let loose. The tension in her abdomen dissolved under my hands, and I sat back on my heels in the frozen mud and exhaled.

She stood at six forty. Unsteady, blowing hard, but standing.

Connolly handed me a coffee from the flask he kept in the cab. It was bitter and barely warm and I drank it like water. My hands were filthy. Blood under the nails, mineral oil to the elbows, a smear of something I didn't want to identify across my left cheek where I'd wiped my face with the back of my wrist. The O'Brien boy was crying with relief, one hand on the mare's neck, and I let him, because seventeen-year-olds who love their horses that much deserve a minute before anyone tells them to pull it together.

"You're grand," I told the mare. Rubbed the flat of her skull between the eyes. "Dramatics."

This was my life. Had been for eleven years, since I'd taken over the failing two-vet practice in Salthill and rebuilt it into the region's go-to equine surgery. Four AM calls and frozen fields and the particular satisfaction of keeping things alive that other people had written off. I drove a twelve-year-old Land Rover that smelled permanently of antiseptic and hay. I lived in a terraced cottage three hundred metres from the sea, where the walls were thin enough to hear the tide turn at night and the salt air crusted the window latches shut by October. I had a vegetable garden that produced more courgettes than any single person needed and a grey cat named Verdict who tolerated my schedule with the resigned dignity of someone who'd long since stopped expecting better.

Clean. That was the word for it. My life was clean.

I'd made it that way on purpose. Piece by piece, year by year, the way you build a dry-stone wall, no mortar, just the weight of each stone resting on the one below it. The practice. The cottage. The morning walks along the coast before anyone else was awake, just me and the water and the sky doing its grey Galway theatre. I'd built a life that asked nothing of anyone and answered only to the animals. No family complications. No one else's mess. I saw my mother twice a year. Christmas and her birthday, and those visits had the careful choreography of two people who loved each other from a distance they'd both agreed not to close.

I showered at the surgery after the O'Brien call. Changed into fresh scrubs. Started the kettle in the staff kitchen while the morning light crept through the windows, pale, watercolour light, the kind Galway does in January when it can't decide between rain and frost. The surgery smelled of disinfectant and the particular warm-rubber scent of fresh surgical gloves. I'd designed this kitchen myself when we'd renovated three years back, white subway tiles, a decent extraction fan, a window that looked out over the paddock where post-surgical horses convalesced. Mine. Every protocol, every standard, every routine pinned to the noticeboard.

Connolly arrived at eight, hung his coat on the hook by the dispensary, and started on the appointment book without being asked. We had two castrations, a dental float, and a suspicious lameness in a show jumper. A standard Tuesday.

My phone rang at nine fourteen.

Dublin area code. I didn't recognise the number. Connolly glanced over from the dispensary. I never took personal calls during clinic hours, and I almost let it go to voicemail. My thumb hovered over the red button. Something stopped it. Not instinct. Not premonition. Just the clinical habit of answering what presents itself, because the thing you ignore is the thing that kills.

"Dr. Gallagher? This is Thomas Brennan, of Brennan and Harte Solicitors, Dublin."

I hadn't heard that surname spoken aloud in twenty-two years. Gallagher. My mother had changed us back to her maiden name. O'Sullivan, the year we arrived in Galway. I'd been six. Old enough to remember a house with a heavy front door and a smell of tobacco and furniture polish. Not old enough to understand why we left in the middle of the night with one suitcase each.

"My name is Eireann O'Sullivan."

"Yes. I'm aware of the name you use professionally. I'm calling regarding your father. Padraig Gallagher."

Father. The word landed like a stone in standing water. Concentric circles. No splash. I leaned against the kitchen counter and pressed my free hand flat against the tile. Cool. Smooth. Real.

"What about him?"

"He's dead, Dr. Gallagher. I'm sorry to inform you. And you're named in his will. The reading is scheduled for Thursday at our offices. I'd strongly recommend you attend in person."