Page 28 of Rock Me

“No, please, listen to me,” he begs right back.

"Let's go, Jez." I hear Toni say.

"She knows me, Toni... I don’t understand." His voice breaks. And in turn it breaks something inside me. It’s not fair. It’s not fair to him. If there’s the smallest chance that… that he did exist in my past, he deserves an explanation. I need to explain to him.

I spin around, watching him back out of the room, his face confused and twisted in pain.

"Wait.” I say and he stops and eyes locking on mine. “I- I have amnesia," I say. The phrase that’s defined my life lately.

"What? No.”

"I... I don't remember you. I have amnesia."

His face falls and there’s a tiny tipping of his head as he processes what I’ve said.

"So, everything you're remembering? It didn't happen for me. I don't remember it. And I don't know you. So please, do the same for me. Forget me. Like I’ve forgotten you."

I walk over and slowly pull the door closed between us and walk back to bed.

Go away, mystery man. Just go.

I don't want to be reminded of the things I've forgotten and lost.

The things I might've had but don't have any more.