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I hit send before I can delete the message, and go back to watching this YouTube tutorial on brushstrokes and how to control them better. The laptop and my phone go off seconds apart, the little ding! letting me know that Nathan’s texted back.

Nathan: Ben?

I’m a moron. This is the first time we’ve texted, so he wouldn’t have my number, which means that he just got a completely random text from some unknown number.

Nathan: Bennnnnnnnnn is that youuuuuuuuuuuuu?

Me: Sorry, forgot you didn’t have my number.

Nathan: It’s cool. This is Ben De Backer right? Not some weird coincidence where I’ve somehow caught the attention of two Bens?

Me: That seems statistically improbable. But yes, this is De Backer, Ben.

Nathan: So what are we up for tomorrow?

Me: Tutoring, if you’re still interested?

Nathan: Oh right! Yeah I need it. Ms. Sever gave us this practice exam to do. Do you just want to come over to my house?

I read back through Mariam’s messages on my laptop before responding. I don’t really know how to explain myself to him. Hey, can we maybe meet somewhere that isn’t either of our houses? As if I’m not already enough of a weirdo.

Me: That sounds fine.

I hit send before I can delete it.

Nathan: KK.

I switch back to messaging Mariam on my laptop, double-checking the name and number just so I don’t start talking about Nathan to Nathan.

Me: Sorry. I texted Nathan, he wants to meet at his house…

Mariam: You gonna do it?

Me: I already said yes.

Mariam: Yay!!! I’m so proud of you Benji!!!!

Mariam: See what happens when you listen to your elders?

Me: Sorry, forgot you’re a total grandparent.

Mariam: And don’t you forget it!

I don’t feel like I should be celebrating right now though. My phone buzzes again and there’s a notification at the top of the screen. Another message from Nathan.

Mariam: Okay, I’ve got to head out. Busy weekend.

Me: Kay, thanks for the help.

Mariam: What I’m here for ;)

I close the laptop and leave it at the end of the bed.

Nathan: So what’re you up to?

My heart clenches a bit. I thought we were done, but I guess not. Maybe texting will be easier.

Me: Nothing, lying in bed.