My stomach twists. Sarah. She’ll be so upset that I didn’t tell her anything.
We’re best friends. We tell each other everything! But I’ve been hiding so much from her lately.
What if I lose them both?
My eyes sting, my vision blurring. Maybe I should get ahead of Derek and tell Ryan the truth. Wouldn’t that look better than him finding out through Derek?
Or maybe it wouldn’t matter at all how he found out. He’ll be furious regardless.
A knock comes from the door, and my first thought is of Tyler. Maybe he came by on his own to talk.
Watching him run off like that hurt me more than I expected. It almost felt like he gave up on me. On the baby. On us.
I can’t blame him for panicking, and if he’s back to talk, I think we can get back to a good place. At least a place where we can co-parent or something.
Hopefully, I’m not being too optimistic.
I get off my bed and walk over to the door to open it, the hope in my chest rising and dying in one breath as I see Ryan standing outside. He doesn’t look concerned or confused.
There’s hurt in his narrowed eyes and anger in his tight jaw.
My throat tenses, making me swallow hard as I stare at him. I can’t think of a single thing to say first.
“We need to talk,” Ryan says before stepping into my suite. He walks past me with heavy, quick steps.
I let the door swing shut, anxiety buzzing under my skin. I almost want to run to the airport right now, but what will that fix? One way or another, I have to face this.
It might as well be right now.
“Did Derek talk to you?” I ask as I turn to him.
Ryan flashes me a confused look. “Derek?”
Now, I’m the one who looks confused.
“Derek found my prenatal vitamins in the bathroom. I thought he told you the news,” I tell him.
Ryan shakes his head. “Sarah told me.”
My heart stops. “What? How’d she know?”
“She overheard you, Jackson, Tyler, and Marcus talking in here,” Ryan replies as he places his hands on his waist, every muscle in his body looking tense. “She said you’re pregnant and one of them is the father.”
A spark of anger burns through me. Sarah ran and told Ryan without even trying to talk to me? How could she do that to me?
But Ryan is her fiancé. They have a closer relationship than Sarah and I ever will.
I’m still disappointed that I didn’t get a chance to talk to her first, but what’s done is done. Now, there’s the aftermath to deal with.
“Yes,” I say, my voice trembling slightly. “It wasn’t planned. It just…happened.”
Ryan rubs his jaw, his head shaking. “What were you thinking, Cassidy? You grew up with these guys! They’re like your brothers too.”
I immediately wrinkle my nose at him. “What? No, I never saw them like that, Ryan. I had a crush on them!”
His eyes widen. “What?”
I sigh, my cheeks flushing in embarrassment. “I’ve always liked them. I just never acted on my feelings because I didn’t think they felt the same way and I didn’t want to upset you.”