Page 88 of The Alpha and His Song: Volume One

I guess if you find me, you find me. If mom makes us move again and I told you where we moved, would you come get me? I’d miss my song boy. That’s still crazy, but maybe you could bring me to see him. I haven’t seen mom since she left though so she must be liking this guy.

Mom is skilled at hiding things? That’s a strange talent to have. I don’t know her that well though, so I’ll go with you there. I guess I could email you if Luke shows up. I’m confident my song boy could kick his ass. I don’t know why, but I know he would for me. Space sucks. Why did I ask for space? I don’t want space. THIS IS CRAZY IT WAS ONE DATE UGH!

A really good date. He bought me a milkshake. Have you had one? They are SO good. Are you sure you want a crazy little sister like me? I’d like to say I’m not normally so crazy but my head has been hissing and sings now so that ship has sailed.

OMG, YOU ARE SO RIGHT! Luke can be in the shadows. I didn’t even know he was around several times then he just appeared like a snake. A slithering snake in my grass, that’s what he is. A snake. I hate him. Ohhhhh, I do.

Luke had me locked up. He injected me with something that burned and made me want to die. I’m surprised I didn’t. It hurt so freaking bad. Then he just left me in that awful place with those horrible people. Although I might have had a side effect where the cold doesn’t bother me now. It used to. I almost froze to death once in a place mom left me with no heat.

I suppose you could give the other “brothers” (jury is still out on me believing you all about that) my email. I’ll check it occasionally, I guess. I can’t stay on for too long, or your version of Aidan could track me. Probably.

Or is that just a phone call? I don’t know. Maybe I do watch too much television. You said movies though. I do watch a lot of both as I’m often alone. What else is there to do? I do still read the mob books though. Mom took my fantasy books. I still love those books though; I just have to read them at the library.

It seems we are saying that seashell throne room mansion place was real. That’s what you’re saying, right? How do I get back there? It was very pretty and it felt like home. That’s weird. Don’t answer that. I swear I’m having the weirdest dreams lately with seashell thrones, a weird Witch who is evil and takes on other appearances. I’m pretty sure she could be a movie villain.

As far as getting whacked, I’m fairly certain Luke totally wants to have me whacked. Or beat up. Definitely beat up. I’m kind of kick ass now though so he’s out of luck. My friends taught me and I’m pretty dang good. I also own a gun, I’m a good shot. Did I tell you that already? Anyway, keep in touch or don’t. I’ll probably log in and have no emails from you. You’ll go away, everyone does.

Your possible little sister,

Odette

I was about to go back to my room when my email dinged. Noxus had already answered me.

Odette,

Take your time answering the rest of my message. We will meet one day, and I will be the stepfather I should’ve been all along. I will help you find your biological father as well if that’s what you want to do.

As far as holding yourself back from the boy who makes your head sing because of your mother, don’t. She and I are the exception. Caspian and our other boys are not young men. Your mother and I had many happy decades together before everything fell apart.

My parents still love each other very much. Your brothers love the people who make their heads sing too. The only person I know of that has gone through what I have is me. Do not let your mother take this from you too.

I’m sure she’s filled you with insecurities. I’m sure the string of relationships you’ve seen her have made you jaded on love. Don’t think that’s not part of the reason she’s doing this. They will serve some purpose to her, but one of those purposes is to make you dislike relationships.

I know Morgana wants to make you don’t want to be in a relationship where there is love because she is “hurt” when they end. I promise you, not one single relationship your mother has been in that you’ve seen has hurt her when it ended. No matter what you’ve seen her act like in the end, she did not care for them. Nor was she upset when it ended.

Give the boy that makes your head sing a real chance, Odette. He is your other half. Even knowing how everything went with your mom, I’d do it all over again. I’d fight like hell to keep the Morgana I knew and loved with me.

I fought the first time, but our boys are worth everything to me. Trust what your instincts say about this boy. You have probably relied on yourself for a lot. Trust the song in your head. Do not let your mother win.

If this boy is unworthy of you, then he can deal with me. If he hurts you, email me. One day, when we find you, then he and I will talk. I hope to meet him one day soon and see a smile on your face. There’s nothing wrong with being happy no matter what your mother has said.

If Morgana’s ever told you about the security and what a man can do for you is all you need; she’s lying. Your mother and I had a great love once upon a time. She is the one who turned her back on us. Morgana ran away from our sons and our life together. I know where this path leads her. It is nowhere happy or good.

I’ll tell you even after all I’ve been through; should I meet another who made my head sing I would trust in my song. I would give them and myself a chance. It’s ok to let yourself be happy.

Noxus

Damn. These guys could wax poetic, couldn’t they? It made sense to me though considering they knew Luke. For all his faults, when Luke was being sweet he said the nicest things. Hell the man would and could, say all the right things. Luke always did have a way with words too.

Was our family like stuck in the wrong century? Was that what was going on here? Did Caspian fight for things to be a different way? Is that why mom left them? She tried to make them go to war? She was using me for war? They said they weren’t the mob but that kind of said they are.

I looked at my phone and saw I had a voicemail from Keaton. Tears filled my eyes as I listened to it. I could hear the tears, fear, and anger in his voice. I guess it could make sense that he couldn’t hear me yelling over Lisa’s shrill sobbing self. Gosh, I didn’t like her.

I sipped on my drink more then went into the kitchen to put the glass in the sink. I laid down on the couch and started watching T.V. I knew there was no way I could sleep. I was watching a reality show. At least my love life wasn’t this crazy or filmed. Oh god, it might actually be this crazy.

Could I be on a reality show with my life? I was positive Lisa could deliver the drama. That would make it VERY easy for my probable mob boss brother to find me. WAIT! If my brother was a King or Don, then was I a Princess? Well, no. Because I’d be the bastard kid. I snickered out loud thinking of being a Princess.

I felt funny and weak. Dang, I probably shouldn’t drink anymore. The song in head sounded garbled. I laid my head down and closed my eyes. I was back with the black and green wolf. There weren’t any other wolves around.