Eli lifts my chin, forcing me to look into his eyes. With all this alcohol in my system, I’m barely able to focus on his face. My head’s spinning, like I’m riding a merry-go-round. But I swear I see something flicker across Eli’s face.
It’s like he’s seeing straight through what everybody else sees, and wanting the parts of me I’ve always kept hidden.
Parts of me I didn’t even know existed until I came up here.
Chapter 26
Eli
“Let’s be real here. We all know this thing with all of us is going to end.”
“I can’t seem to keep a man around. Ever.”
Up until now, I assumed Sienna would be the one to leave.
Now I realize how much we have in common. She’s afraid of being abandoned, just like me.
“I can’t seem to keep a man around. Ever.”
What the hell does that mean?
That Holden guy left her, which is why she came up here in the first place—to get over him. Knox was filling Cash and me in a few days ago. Apparently, the guy proposed to his new girlfriend right in front of Sienna. What an asshole…
“I loved him up until I came here and met the three of you.”
Drunk talks are sober thoughts.
Does that mean she loves us all?
I watch Sienna’s hands as she continues running them over my body, between the grooves of my muscles, over my shoulders. She cradles her hands around the nape of my neck when she’s finished.
Her gaze appears hazy, and when she parts her lips to exhale, I catch the scent of whiskey on her hot breath. Not fucking helping. My cock’s already stirring in my pants, and she still has her clothes on.
I want to fuck her. Feel her walls clamp around my length as she comes. Feel our bodies make promises. Things our mouths can’t quite yet say. How we need each other. How we can’t live without each other.
Most people in my life feel like they can’t live without me. I’m the rock everyone leans on when times are tough. But with Sienna, it feels different.
I know how difficult it is to lean on someone, especially when you’re used to people leaving. It makes it hard to trust. To surrender fully to someone.
But I compare this Sienna to the one I first met and see a huge difference. I wanted her immediately but now it’s for a totally different reason.
Her startling blue eyes caught me off guard at first. Her beauty was larger than life—no fucking wonder she was a Hollywood star. The girl held herself a certain way, like she was a queen or something, and wore that mask like it was life or death. In her line of work, I suppose it was.
But I’m attracted to so many other things about her now. Things that have nothing to do with her being a gorgeous actress.
The way she smiles into her coffee with tired eyes.
The way she dances, lighting up without even realizing it.
The way her smile widens every time Henry walks into the room. Nobody has ever bonded with him that way.
Sienna Lane is her best self when she’s away from the cameras.
And a selfish part of me wants to keep her here, away from Hollywood. They don’t see how amazing she really is, and they definitely don’t deserve her.
“Whoops!” Sienna loses her balance and almost trips over herself.
I grab at her hips, catching her. “We should get you outside for some fresh air. You might feel better.”