Page 48 of The Bear Between Us

"Yes."

She's quiet for a moment, which from Nessa is significant. "Are you safe now?" she asks. "Actually safe, not cover story safe."

"Actually safe," I say. "The threat is gone. The mark is." I look at my wrist, at the changed configuration of the lines, settled and quiet in the shop's morning light. "It's part of me now. It's not going anywhere but it's not a danger to anyone."

Nessa processes this with the focused inward expression of someone running a rapid reassessment. Then she takes a breath and says, "Okay. I have approximately forty questions but I'm going to save most of them for when you've had more than three days of recovery from whatever that was." She looks at me. "One question now."

"Go ahead."

"The big guy. Kaedric." She says the name carefully, like she's been practicing it. "Is he." She pauses, looking for the right word. "Yours."

The question is simple and Nessa means it simply and the answer is the same.

"Yes," I say. "And I'm his. It goes both directions."

She considers that for a moment and then nods once with the decisive quality of someone filing a significant piece of information in the correct folder. "Okay," she says. "Good. He came back for the shop after the window, you know. Personally. Checked that everything was locked up right." A pause. "I watched him from the back room. He didn't know I was there."

That lands quietly and I let it.

Maris arrives at half past ten with her bag over one shoulder and the particular quality of readiness she brings to working sessions. She greets Nessa with warmth.

We set up in the back room, my workbench cleared and the reference books restacked, and Maris watches me run through a basic working in the familiar space and notes what's different.

"The integration is clean," she says. "Cleaner than I expected this soon after the binding."

"It's not fighting me," I say. "It hasn't been since I woke up."

"The shop helps," she says, looking around the back room. The new power is orienting to that, taking the shape of the space you've already built."

I think about that. My grandmother's practice before mine, my own five years of quiet careful work, the intention built into every remedy and every ward and every consultation.

We work for two hours. Maris guides me through the integration of the new power into the specific applications I use daily, the remedies, the wards, the consultation work, and what emerges is not what I had before with additions. It's something revised at the root level, the same practice but deeper, the same skills but with access to a capacity that changes what's possible without changing what it's for.

I'm still an herbalist. A witch. A practitioner who makes sleep sachets for lonely clients and tension remedies for people who carry their stress in their shoulders.

I'm also something that doesn't have a name yet.

Both of those things are true and neither cancels the other.

At noon Nessa puts her head into the back room and says she's flipping the sign to open because the Thursday regulars are going to start arriving and what does she tell them.

I untie my workbench apron and hang it on its hook.

"Tell them I'm back," I say, and I go out to the front of the shop.

Mrs. Calloway arrives at twelve fifteen, same as every Thursday. She sits in the low chair across from my consultation table.

"You look well," she says. "Tired, but well."

"I am," I say. "Both of those things."

She tells me the sleep sachets are still not working, which means they're working perfectly, and I listen and I'm present and I'm here, in my shop, in my life, in the version of it that I've chosen with full information and full agency.

Outside the window the town goes about its Thursday business.

Up the hill, just visible from the consultation room if you know where to look, the tree line of the forest sits quiet and watchful and mine.

I choose this. Every day.