It was the only place in the world I went when I needed to think without the weight of the Golovin poker empire pressing against my skull.
Isla stepped out of the car and stood still for a moment, looking up at the structure. The porch light I’d triggered remotely cast a warm glow over the timber fascia, and something about the scene—this woman, this place, the two of them meeting for the first time—made me pause with my hand on the car door longer than necessary.
Inside, she moved carefully, taking the space in. The wood floors, stone fireplace, and heavy furniture that had been chosen for durability rather than display. There were no gleaming surfaces, no curated art, no evidence of wealth.
“It’s not what I expected,” she said.
“What did you expect?”
She ran her fingers along the back of the leather couch, a slow drag that she didn’t seem entirely conscious of but which did something to the hairs on my skin. “Something colder. More… controlled.”
“It is controlled,” I said. “Control doesn’t always look like marble.”
She looked at me with something that wasn’t quite amusement and wasn’t quite challenge, and a third thing I’d never found the right word for, that existed specifically in the space between us. Then she moved toward the fireplace, and I went to start it since it was night already and the air was remarkably chilly.
I slept badly that first night, which was expected. New environments required a recalibration period—even environments I’d chosen myself. And, from the way she tossed and turned beside me on the large bed, Isla didn’t have a smooth night, either.
I lay in the dark and ran the threat model again, the way I always did when a situation changed shape, accounting for variables and discarding probabilities below the threshold of concern.
By 4 am, with my arm around Isla, I’d done it three times and arrived at the same conclusion each time: we were clean. No tail. No digital trail. No one who mattered knew this place existed.
I got up anyway and walked the perimeter.
It was a habit as much as a need. I watched the tree line, the access road, the shallow southern slope where someone approaching from the valley would lose cover. Everything was still. Wind moved through the pines in long, slow exhales. An owl called once from somewhere above me and then went silent.
I stood at the edge of the porch for a long time after, just watching the dark.
*****
Isla found the kitchen before I did, later in the morning. I came downstairs to the sound of something hitting a pan and the smell of coffee already brewed. I stopped in the doorway of the kitchen and watched her work without announcing myself. She was in one of my shirts—it hit her at mid-thigh, sleeves pushed to the elbows—and she moved with the kind of unselfconscious ease she only showed when she thought she was unobserved.
My mind wouldn’t let go of the fact that she had packed. I had carried her duffel bag along with mine from the car. She had clothes she could wear—her bag couldn’t be full of underwear only. But she was wearing my shirt. She chose to wear it.
I let my thoughts and stolen view of her run for a moment longer than I should have.
Then I said, “The eggs are in the lower drawer.”
She startled just slightly, recovered, and didn’t give me the satisfaction of pretending she hadn’t. “I know. I already found them.” She nodded toward the coffee. “Sit down.”
I sat down.
We cooked together in a way I hadn’t anticipated. It was a choreography that required neither negotiation nor explanation. She seasoned. I sliced. She told me the heat was too high, and I turned it down without arguing because she was right.
It was so ordinary that it felt nearly transgressive.
We ate on the porch in the cold morning air, the valley below us still wearing its fog. Isla wrapped both hands around her mug and watched the mist move, and I watched her, and for a long stretch of time, neither of us spoke.
“Tell me something about before,” she said. “Before all of this.”
“Before the Bratva?”
“Yeah.”
I considered what to give her and what to keep. I’d never had someone ask me in a way that made me want to answer honestly. Most people who asked about my past were either looking for leverage or were feigning interest they didn’t actually feel. Isla was doing neither.
“Cold winters,” I said finally. “My mother used to run water into a pan and set it on the radiator overnight so there’d be something warm in the morning. The building we lived in… the heat was unreliable. You learned not to count on it.”
She was watching me with the stillness she embodied when she was genuinely listening.