“It is.”
Rod’s gaze moved between Bretton and Allaston. He was so very disappointed with the way things turned out. Somehow, he’d held out hope that Bretton would want to come with him to be reunited with the family again, but Bretton wanted nothing to do with them. He was his own man, with his own world, and his long-lost family didn’t fit into that world. He was a mercenary, the very worst kind, and he had a mission of destruction. Rod couldn’t help him with it and he couldn’t turn him away from it. There was nothing left for him to do or say. After severalmoments, he squeezed Bretton’s arm and let him go, taking a last drink of wine before rising from his chair.
“You are my cousin, Bretton, and I will always love you as such,” he said, but there were tears in his eyes. “I will not tell grandfather about you. I wish you the very best in life and I truly hope that someday, you will find what you are looking for. I hope you find something that makes you happy. But know you can always call upon me, no matter what. I will be there for you. My lady, I wish you the best of luck, too.”
With that, he left the table and headed out into the rainy night beyond. Bretton and Allaston watched him go, each lost to their own sense of sadness. Bretton most of all. He wished he could be more like Rod. He wished he could have accepted the man and they could have been family and allies once again, but it was not to be, mostly for Rod’s protection. Rod had no idea how turbulent Bretton’s world was or how terrible. It was best just to leave everything between them on this somber note.
When Rod was gone, Allaston turned to Bretton, who was staring off into space as if reflecting on times gone by, times when he and Rod were young and carefree. Reflecting on the times that children share. She wasn’t quite sure what to say.
“He seems very nice,” she said hesitantly. “He seems genuinely concerned about you.”
Bretton was still staring off. “Aye,” he said. “He does. But it is best that he stay far, far away from me.”
Allaston nodded. “He knows that,” she said sadly. “I could see it in his face.”
Bretton sighed heavily. “I always wanted…,” he began, then stopped and collected himself. “It is best for him to remain away from me, but I will admit that I miss him already. I never had a brother. I suppose this moment that we spent here with Rod is the closest I will ever come.”
Before Allaston could reply, Bretton was on his feet, looking for the innkeeper so he could secure two rooms for the night. Allaston got the distinct impression that he wanted to forget about Rod and their conversation. Perhaps it was too painful for him to reflect upon. In any case, Bretton was moving on, pushing Rod and the de Llions out of his mind. Now that Bretton knew the truth of why no one ever searched for him, it was time to leave the abandoned little boy in the past.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Allaston had neverseen an actual bathroom before. As nice as her home of Pelinom Castle was, there were no rooms dedicated purely to bathing. Therefore, when the innkeeper’s wife showed her into the small, windowless room that was lit with several candles, all Allaston could do was look around in wonder.
After Rod had left, Bretton had arranged for a room and a bath for Allaston, of which she was extremely grateful. The bathing room had a big oiled cloth spread over the floor and atop the oiled cloth was a mat of woven grasses so that the water would drain through the mat to the oiled cloth below and keep the bather’s feet dry. There was a very large bathtub, half-full of warm water, a stool in the corner, and a table upon which sat precious glass phials that were filled with some kind of liquid. There was also a painted wooden box on the table and a bowl that contained flower petals, some of them dried and some of them fresh. The innkeeper’s wife pulled out the big screen that was over in one corner, positioning it near the bathtub to protect the bather from the open door.
“Now,” the woman said. “I will bring ye a robe so that ye may wear it whilst I clean up yer clothing. Is that all ye have with ye?”
Allaston nodded, looking down at the dark blue dress she was wearing, made from heavy wool for traveling. “Aye,” she said. “I have nothing else.”
“Not even a shift to sleep in?”
Allaston shook her head. “Nothing but what I am wearing.”
The innkeeper’s wife eyed her. “Ye look about my daughter’s size,” she said. “I will bring ye something to sleep in. Can I help ye undress, my lady?”
Allaston shook her head. “I will do it,” she said, casting the woman a long glance. “I will also bathe alone. I do not need help.”
The woman nodded, not at all offended by the statement. She went to the small table and pulled forth a phial, pulling out the stopper. She sniffed deeply before pouring a measure of the clear liquid into the bath.
“Lemon rind and rosemary oil,” she said. Then, she pulled the top off of the painted box to reveal three lumpy bars of soap. “Ye can use these if ye wish, one is rose, one is lavender, and the other is Castile soap. Ye may use any of these.”
Allaston nodded, waiting until the woman left before going and smelling all three of the soaps. It was something of a novelty. At the priory, they bathed with a soft soap made from lye and animal fat. The Mother Prioress didn’t believe in anything sweet-smelling, thinking that it only fed the vanity, so the soaps often smelled terrible. Therefore, to smell these deliciously-scented soaps was a very special treat. Allaston took her time in selecting her soap, choosing the lavender, and in little time she had all of her clothing off and climbed into the tub.
It was warm and wonderful, and she quickly submerged her entire body, including her head, luxuriating in the lemon-rosemary water. It had been a while since she’d last had a bath. The last time she could remember was when she had beenreleased from the vault those weeks ago. Therefore, she was enjoying this one.
Her hair, long and dark, was washed with the lavender soap and she wrung it out, braiding it tightly and winding up around her head as she scrubbed every inch of skin. All the while, her mind kept going back to the meeting with Rod and the things that had been said. It had been a depressing conversation, in her opinion, because loving her family as she did, it was hard for her to understand Bretton’s resistance to becoming a close cousin who very badly wanted to know him. If she thought hard about it, she felt badly for Bretton in general. The man was terrified of letting anyone get close to him.
It wasn’t as if he was a truly heartless man. Allaston had been around him long enough to know that was far from the case. She’d seen him around his men and he came across as very ungiving and demanding, but when he was with her, there was humanity and warmth to him. Those days when she was in the vault and he was her cold captor were long gone. The Bretton she had come to know was a man, she believed, who was indeed capable of feeling. He simply had to warm up and overcome his fear of attachment. He had to overcome his fear that the person he cared for was going to be ripped away from him.
She was jolted from her thoughts when the door to the room suddenly opened and then promptly closed. Assuming it was the innkeeper’s wife, she turned casually to look at the woman and was completely startled to see Bretton standing there.
“Oh!” she shrieked, rolling up into a ball in the tub, hugging her knees. “Why are you here?”
Bretton stood there with a lazy half-grin on his face. “I have come to help my wife bathe,” he said.
Allaston frowned deeply. “Wife?” she repeated, outraged. “What madness is this?”
He shrugged and planted himself on the stool, his eyes glimmering with mirth at Allaston as she tried to maintain her modesty.
