God, it was thick. It burned at first, and I whimpered, clinging to Blue even harder.
“Shhh,” Blue soothed. “You’re okay. Take a breath.”
His gentle coaxing reminded me to relax. When I did, the burn changed to a sting, then to something warm, and full, and filled with pleasure. I stayed standing, draped against Blue,keenly aware that he was still dressed, and I was probably leaking precum all over his clothes.
I didn’t care. All I cared about was the way it felt like my universe slid into place when Jax added a second finger and Blue kissed the whimpers away as they tumbled from my lips.
Jax kissed my shoulder as he gently worked his two fingers in and out of me. The feelings racing through me were incomparable to anything I’d felt before. Nothing had ever even touched the kind of pleasure that was coursing through my veins.
Jax and Blue weren’t just fucking me. They were remaking me. Molding me. Fixing things in me that I didn’t realize were broken.
“You’re doing so good, Ashy,” Blue whispered against my cheek before stealing another kiss.
Then Jax joined in on the praise and my world shifted again. My cock leaked. Throbbed. Ached. Every little word of praise went straight to my dick, making it pulse and twitch. I grew increasingly desperate and writhed on Jax’s fingers, needing more than he was giving me.
I whined when he slid his fingers out of my ass and his presence vanished. Then I saw him position himself on the couch and before I realized what was happening, Blue was directing me, helping me climb onto Jax and straddle him.
Blue grabbed the lube and started slicking Jax’s cock.
For me.
The reality of what was going to happen must have flashed up on my face because then Jax grabbed me and pulled me down to him. He devoured my nerves in a toe-curling kiss.
Blue’s hand bumped against me as he lined Jax’s cock up with my hole.
“Take your time, baby.” Jax’s voice was tender. Affectionate. “Go as slow as you need.”
I needed him now. Deep. Needed him to stretch me open and tear me apart, and maybe then I’d be put back together in a way that made sense. I bore down on his cock, trying to take too much too fast. My face scrunched as a sharp warning jolt of pain shot through me.
“Slow, baby. Go slow. I’m not going anywhere.” Jax’s soothing words were a promise I was desperate for him to keep.
TEN
JAX
Lukas had been blessedlysilent through the whole scene so far. The only reason I knew he was still here was the way I caught him in my periphery, moving around the room for better angles. The rest of my focus was on Asher and the way he trembled in my arms as he settled down on my cock.
His chest heaved with every inch that he took. His breathing was shaky and uneven as he worked my cock deeper. The presence of River and Lukas and their cameras made me kind of wish that I’d been somehow able to convince Blue and Asher to do this away from the cameras, while also being grateful they were there to capture every moment.
By the time Asher took all of me, Blue had stripped himself naked, putting his gorgeous body on display. I suddenly felt like I needed two of me so I could give my full attention to both men.
Blue stepped closer, a hand wrapped around the base of his cock. I watched him give it a stroke as he reached for Asher. Blue didn’t command. He didn’t push Asher or direct him. He waitedpatiently for Asher to understand what was being asked of him. It didn’t take long before Asher made a needy sound and then took Blue’s cock into his mouth.
“That’s right. So good, baby. Easy now. You’re doing so good.” With every bit of praise that fell from Blue’s mouth, Asher responded by squirming, his ass clenching around my dick every time he moved.
The sight of them did things to me that I couldn’t articulate if I tried. Blue looked at Asher with a tender affection that made my heart hurt. When Asher found his rhythm, his fingers digging into my chest, his body rocking on top of me, riding my cock as he sucked Blue’s, I looked up at Blue as he tipped his head back, accentuating the long line of his neck. I wanted to kiss every inch of him, and it pained me that there wouldn’t be time for that. When the cameras stopped rolling, Blue’s rules would go back in place.
I got it. I did. He didn’t have to explain that his rules were about protecting himself. But understanding something didn’t mean I necessarily liked it, even though I honored his rules and never tried to get him to break them. Maybe it was because deep down I knew I wasn’t worth breaking them for.
“You should feel this ass,” I told Blue in an effort to drag my mind back to the moment. Because if the moment was all I had, I was going to make sure I lived it to the fullest. “It’s so tight. So fucking good.”
I gave Asher’s hips a squeeze, let my hands roam over his body. Toyed with his nipples to make him squirm on my cock some more. God, the fun I could have with someone so sweet. So responsive. So eager to please.
Blue pulled out of Asher’s mouth and brushed a thumb against the corner then swooped down and captured him in a kiss. I felt the way Asher swayed toward Blue while still gripping on to me like he needed us both at once. The room was quietexcept for the steady thudding of my heart and the sweet sounds Asher made as Blue kissed him.
“My turn,” Blue said as he pulled away, leaving Asher looking a little dumbstruck by the kiss they shared.
Blue helped Asher to his feet and I moved out of the way. Asher knelt on the couch, using the back to brace himself. And Blue, well, Blue set his sights on me, and I didn’t pass up the opportunity to haul him against me and kiss the life out of him. Kiss away years of frustrated longing and unrequited everything. His mouth was soft and warm and his tongue was gentle against mine in a way that hollowed out my soul.
