I just hoped it didn’t come back to bite me in the ass.
34
COLE
Istared glumly out my bedroom windows to the city below. Enzo had left on a business trip. I wasn’t even sure where the fuck he went, only that it was urgent and E said he’d left earlier in the morning.
I didn’t give a fuck.
I didn’t seem to give a fuck about much lately.
I thought I had everything, but then that shit went to hell. Now, I was just some lonely, moping piece of fuck, staring out his window like I was in a music video about broken hearts.
It had been raining all damn day. I hated it when it rained. When Rosalie was with us all those years ago, a rainy day meant cuddling with her in bed. Hot chocolate. Movies. Making love.
I shook the old memories out of my head.
Everything was so fucked.
I missed her. I missed Ellis. But I was terrified to admit to her what I’d done. Maybe because right now I’d put myself into limbo, and I wasn’t here nor there. I both had Rosalie and didn’t have her.
And if I told her what happened, then it would sway to the side I really didn’t fucking want it to go.
I loved her. I only wanted her and our family.
Fuck.
I didn’t know how to fix this shit.
My fear told me I couldn’t. Not after she’d been so hurt after thinking we’d cheated on her before.
Fucking damnit.
I continued to stare as lightning streaked across the sky and the rain pounded down. It was a hell of a storm.
A soft knock sounded on my door.
Fucking E had been trying to talk to me and cheer me up forever now, and I was sick of telling him to leave me alone. I knew he meant well, but fuck, man.
Another knock. And another.
I closed my eyes and rested my head against the window. Usually, if I didn’t answer, E would give up and wander away.
I heard the door click open. I didn’t bother opening my eyes. Instead, I let a tear trickle down my cheek as I thought about my Rosebud and our kids.
Our kids.
Fuck.
I needed her.
I opened my eyes a moment later to find myself staring into the prettiest, most vibrant green eyes.
“Rosebud?” I choked out, reaching for her. “Baby?”
“Hey,” she whispered.
“Y-You’re here?”
