Nine days until we walk into the estate.
“I know,” I say.
We’ve been circling this for a week. Since Julian finalized the revised assault and pinned the date to the wall and the whole compound started moving toward it, all of it, at once. I’ve watched Maximus run the numbers, brief the team, position every piece with the precision that has kept people alive. He’s done everything except say what’s sitting in his jaw right now.
I’ve let him not say it. I’m done letting him not say it.
“The estate assault is in nine days,” I say. “Julian’s briefing is tomorrow. Seraphina and Mira need their escort assignments finalized. And you’ve been standing at that window for twenty minutes without turning around, which means you’re working up to a thing you don’t want to say, and I’d rather you said it to my face.”
He turns. His face is exactly what I expected. Controlled. Level. The commander’s mask, fitted so clean you’d need to know where the seams are to see them. I know where the seams are.
“You’re eighteen weeks pregnant with twins,” he says. “The telekinetic amplification has tripled since the first trimester. Your hot flashes put you on the floor twice last week. Elena’s last scan showed the twins’ growth rate accelerating past anything her instruments can predict, the whole pregnancy running fast because the bond is feeding them at a rate no human womb was built for. Seraphina says the magical signatures are strong enough now that she can feel them from across the compound.” His voice doesn’t change. “You are carrying the two most important people in my life into a building that was designed to kill everyone inside it if a single biometric reading fails.”
There it is. Every fear in one paragraph. Clean and sharp and aimed at the one thing he knows I can’t argue with, which is the math.
“Yes,” I say.
“Yes.”
“All of that is true.” I sit on the edge of the bed. He’s standing. The height difference means I’m looking up at him, which I don’t usually let happen during arguments, but this isn’t an argument. This is the last conversation before the last door, and the geometry of it doesn’t matter as much as what I say next. “Every word of it. The twins are growing. The power is unpredictable. My body is doing things Elena can’t explain and Seraphina can barely read. And in nine days I’m walking into the estate beside you.”
His jaw works. The muscle at the hinge jumps once. The shadows stir at his shoulders, a ripple he can’t suppress, and I see what the suppression costs him in the line of his neck, the tendons standing out under skin that’s pale and cool in the window light.
“I’m going in,” I say.
He could cage me. I’ve always known that. He has the authority, the power, the loyalty of every person in this building, and if he said the word I’d be in a safe room with Simone and a guard detail and a view of nothing until it was over. He could do it out of love. He could do it out of fear. He could do it out of the simple arithmetic that says the two heartbeats I’m carrying are worth more than any assault plan, and nobody in the coalition would blame him, and some of them would thank him, and the man who almost answered for me at the council table and caught himself by a thread could finish what he started and call it protection.
Don’t. Please don’t.
I watch him reach for it. I can see it in his body, the old machinery engaging, the deep conditioning that says close the perimeter, lock the door, put the people you love behind the wall and stand in front of it. His hands open and close at his sides. His chest expands with a breath he holds too long.
And then he lets it go.
I see the exact moment. The breath releases. The hands go still. The shadows settle flat against his shoulders and stay there. His face goes to the deliberate stillness he keeps for the hardest calls.
“I know,” he says. Quiet. “I know that too.”
He just told me he knows. And I’d put money on him having known before I said it, since the night on a rooftop that doesn’t exist when I handed him a four-sentence plan and watched him stop arguing with it. I was never going to let anyone else walk through the last door. He was never going to try to stop me. We made that deal without words the night the marks wrote themselves into both of us, and the wordless deals are the ones that hold.
The restraint in those five words takes me a second to hear for what it is. He is not asking me to stay. He is not ordering me behind a wall. He is standing at a window looking at the woman carrying his children and telling her he knows she’s walking into the worst night of both their lives and he’s going to let her, and the letting is costing him more than anything ever has.
I stand. I cross to him. I take his hand.
His fingers close around mine. Tight. His hand is cool and mine is warm and the temperature difference is the oldest conversation our bodies have, the one that started the night I pressed against him in a bed and hasn’t stopped since.
“You could have stopped me,” I say.
“I could have.” His thumb moves once across my knuckles. “I chose not to.”
“That’s not the same as being all right with it.”
“No.” The corner of his mouth moves, not quite a smile, not quite grief. “It’s not.”
We stand at the window. His hand in mine. The dark outside against the glass and the compound below us running its pre-assault preparations and the days shrinking with every breath.
“Tell me what you need,” he says. The commander voice, slipping back in underneath the husband voice, because the two of them live so close in this man that I can’t always tell where one ends and the other begins. “If you’re walking in, I need to know what you need to walk out.”
“My telekinesis at full amplification is the most unpredictable element in the assault,” I say. “It’s also the most powerful. The twins’ channeling gives me force levels that Mira’s last measurement put at three times my baseline, and the force isn’t subject to my training. It reaches for what’s nearest and it doesn’t ask. In the hub I put a man through a reinforced wall without choosing to. In the cache I pinned a guard to a ceiling and the precision surprised me as much as it surprised him. Whatever these two are doing to my power, they’re making it stronger and less controllable at the same time, and the estate corridors are where that combination becomes either our greatest asset or our greatest risk.”
