“I know you are.” That part, I meant and I was talking about in her life in general.
“I’m tired of all this.”
“I know.”
“Sometimes I think about just disappearing.”
“That wouldn’t be the worst thing if you asked me. I promise you might be happier. You wanna disappear with me?”
She laughed softly after that. “Goodnight, Dom.”
“Goodnight, Victoria.”
I ended the call after that and slid the phone back into my pocket. For a second I just stood there looking at the view again. Then I heard the balcony door slide open behind me. I already knew who it was before I turned around. Carmen stepped outside barefoot with her plushy slides on her feet looking the sweetest. As soon as she closed the door back, she folded her arms across her chest. She looked beautiful, and slightly irritated.
“How long you been standing there?” I asked.
“Long enough.” She hissed. She stopped a few feet away from me, and I could tell by the look on her face she was trying to decide whether she wanted to argue or not. “You were talking to Victoria.”
I nodded pulling her close to me right after I ash the joint because one thing I didn’t do was smoke around her exposing her and the baby to secondhand smoke. “Yeah.”
She raised a brow and slowly ran her tongue across the top of her teeth. “Why?”
I looked at her for a second before I answered because there wasn’t no point in lying to Carmen. “She’s still attached.”
Carmen looked away for a second and shook her head. “Of course she is.”
“And that makes her dangerous.”
“Please, she’s all the way in Colombia Dom.” She grilled.
“That don’t mean shit.”
Her eyes came back to mine. “She still wants more from you and she always will.”
I wondered if Carmen trusted me, because the truth was, all those hoes I had been long gone the minute I made this shit more than a contracted marriage. “I know, that’s why I had to make that call.”
“Well guess what, her feelings are never going to change. I know those kinds of women.”
“I know that too.” I told her in agreeance.
The wind blew across her face, and she wrapped her arms tighter around herself even though it wasn’t cold enough for that. She looked tired standing there but not physically tired. It was just the tiredness from not being able to physically be herself right now.
“You care about her?” she asked.
“Not like that. I never did.”
“But you cared enough to help her Dom. I went along with it, but I never felt like she could be trusted.”
“I care about her enough that I don’t want her to become a problem. She’s the new El Blanca and that’s why she has to go.”
Carmen looked down at her stomach for a second, and then back at me. “What are you planning?” she asked.
I looked back at the view away from her. “The same thing I always do.”
“That’s not an answer.”
“If she decides she can’t let this go, then I’m gon’ let it go for her.”
