That’s it?
Paige
No, Daddy. We have work to do. You have 2.3 million followers doing NOTHING. Post something. A selfie. A coffee cup. I don’t care. Give me something to work with.
I groan and should’ve known this was coming. Paige and Chandler, whose father plays the keyboards for Sinful Distraction, run the social media accounts for Elle’s bands, and by proxy 4225 West. Paige has been managing my accounts since she was old enough to tell me my Instagram was “a graveyard with bad lighting.” She’s not wrong. I haven’t posted in three weeks. The last thing on there is a blurry photo of Harrison’s drumsticks crossed on a snare head that Paige captioned with a fire emoji and the tour hashtag.
My one assignment was to set up my phone nightly, take a video, and somehow find clips she could use. Also, send pictures. Had 4225 West’s tour been during the summer or while Paige was on vacation, this would’ve been a moot point. Same with Chandler.
I lock the phone without responding because I know this conversation will happen as soon as I walk into the house. Or maybe it won’t. Maybe she’ll wait until tomorrow, after school, to tell me how I’m failing at social media.
When I get home, Josie’s on the couch. Legs curled beneath her, glasses on, a book open in her lap. Her hair is down now, loose past her shoulders. She’s changed into one of my old shirts, faded black, the collar stretched out. She looks up when I come in.
“Ralph’s still standing?”
“Stronger than ever. Asking Noah to manage was the best decision.”
I sit down beside her. Lift her feet into my lap. Run my thumb along the arch of her ankle. She doesn’t look up from her book. Doesn’t need to. She shifts closer, her knee pressing against my thigh. Josie turns a page. Her toes curl against my leg.
I’m glad to be home because life here is fulfilling, but the truth is, if I could have my family with me while on tour, I’d be on tour.
The problem is what comes with it. Harrison could barely lift his arm above his head by the last show. JD spent half the tour on his phone, tracking his daughter Eden’s surfing competition scores from different time zones. Less than full venues, and even smaller than we’re used to. At some point, we have to face the proverbial music. We aren’t young and we don’t appeal to the current age of late-night concertgoers.
Maybe we are the band that plays at noon so we can all eat dinner at four and be in bed by eight.
Josie sets her book down, spine up, on the arm of the couch. She takes her glasses off, folds them, places them on top of the book. She turns her head and looks at me.
“Stop thinking so loud,” she says.
I squeeze her ankle. She lets me hold it. “I can’t help it. I have a lot on my mind.”
“Mira?”
I nod. “We’re old . . .” I avoid looking at her. “I mean, the band. I’ve got gray hair, Harrison has a bum shoulder, and JD is present but he’s not. Maybe a break is something we need.”
Josie runs her fingers through my hair. “First off, we’re not old, we’re just getting older. Second, you’re my silver fox and you’re fucking hot. The only gray I want to see you in is sweatpants. Third, Eden’s at a different stage in her life than Paige. She gets to work with you, and Eden is traveling all over. I know Jenna misses JD when he’s not home, but also, she knows how much JD loves being in the band.”
JD’s the one I feel will leave the band, before the band leaves the rest of us.
We stay like this until Paige comes home. She comes into the living room, sits between us, and tells us about her day.
“I haven’t kept up on my emails,” I say to her and Josie. “Did the school board hire a new principal?”
Josie nods. “Her name’s Teagan Lowery. Single mom, which is one of the reasons I suggested those apartments. She had trouble finding a place. Her son’s sixteen and playing for Nick and Noah right now.”
“Did she find a place?”
“Yeah, a rental out past the water tower,” Josie tells me.
“Tristin’s cool. He hangs out with Mack.” Mack Ashford, the frenemy’s son, who is currently dating my daughter.
I nod, taking everything in and remind Josie to make an offer on the building. The sooner we own it, the sooner we can make changes.
THREE
Paige thunders down the stairs and startles when she sees me leaning against the sink. I’m standing there, holding a mug of coffee, and waiting for her.
“Hey, morning,” she says as she goes to the refrigerator. She’s wearing her cheerleading outfit, which means there’s a game tonight. I hadn’t even looked at the calendar. “You’re up early.”
