Page 65 of The Song We Lost

I leave voicemails I don’t remember recording.

Some are angry.

Some pleading.

Some slurred apologies.

She blocks my number, so I switch phones and call again.

The pills don’t work like they used to.

Nothing does.

So I take more.

I tell myself I’m in control, that she’ll come back once this phase burns out. But deep down, in the quiet moments I can’t drown...

I know the truth.

I didn’t lose her all at once.

I lost her every time I chose myself and called itus.

And now August is bleeding into September, and everything I thought I was chasing is finally right in front of me. I just don't know what to do with the fact that it's nothing as I had pictured it, and I may have lost the only thing that should have mattered.

what they say

BREAKING:

Luke Carter signs one-album deal amid speculation surrounding marriage and image shift. Sources say the label is “testing the market.”

@MusicRowDaily:

Luke Carter signs a ONE-album deal with Crossline Records.

Not the multi-record agreement his camp was reportedly pushing for.

@reply:

That’s a prove-it contract.

@reply:

That’s not a win.

@reply:

It’s a leash.

FAN COUNTDOWN THREAD

SEPTEMBER CAN’T COME FAST ENOUGH.

@frontrowfaithful:

I can't wait for Jackson and Bailey to sing every night!!!

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