Everyone wants to fucking be alone.
But me.
“Sevryn just tried to make me talk about what happened. I stormed off to my room, then starshot out here. Our tension is my fault, not his. Well, I mean, yeah, he’s acting very much out of character, but I’m making it worse. I literally can’t face him.”
I give her a minute to gather the courage to keep speaking. I don’t push or really even breathe that hard.
I’m so thankful she showed up unannounced. I won’t be doing anything to scare her off.
“I begged him to fuck me,” she spits out, running her hands over her face before her wide eyes turn to me.
My jaw drops.
“I’m sorry, like just a minute ago or?”
“Please don’t pick. I’ve got to get this off my chest before I crawl into a hole and die. I need to vent judgment free.”
“I swear to the Valories I’m not picking and never in a million years would I judge you. I was genuinely shocked. That was the first question that came to mind.”
She huffs and scootches her body around until her knees press into my side. I mimic her movements until we’re facing one another fully.
“I was so drained when we walked into the Chamber, and I was gripping what little strength I had left so when we needed to starshoot, I could. I didn’t expect the power in there to hit me so hard.
“The second we walked in, it assaulted me, and I…” Her face scrunches in pure mortification. “I threw myself at him. Literally. Arms wrapped around his neck, legs around his waist, and kissed him faster than he could even react.
“Gods…he backed us up until we hit a door and he took us into a room. When he put me down on my feet, I tried my hardest to strip my armor off. I didn’t even notice he was busy killing the people we barged in on.
“He kept trying to talk to me, telling me to snap out of it, but I couldn’t. I just kept begging him to…ugh, for the Valories. The things that came out of my mouth. The things I actually said out loud that I wanted to do to him. Then I started sobbing when he kept telling me no.”
The tremble in her tangled fingers is vicious, and her face is scarlet as though she fell asleep in the sun for hours. She won’t look at me.
“Not at all trying to make this about me, but the Goddess of Seduction made me moan. Like out loud. I thought I was going to have an orgasm.”
Her head whips back up fast as lightening and her eyes widen.
“What?”
“Yep. She wrapped me up in a rope of her power, made me moan, and my eyes rolled to the back of my head. My power was completely useless against her.”
“Shit.”
“Yeah. I didn’t say that to lessen what you went through, but to let you know, you weren’t the only one of us affected by her or that power. It was so strong I’m surprised we all didn’t react far, far worse.”
“That helps a little, actually. I didn’t witness anything that happened. After I threw myself at Sevryn’s feet, he picked me up, moved me to a far corner in the room, and told me to stay there. I was so delusional I just kept sobbing that he was leaving me and didn’t want me.
“Finally, when I guess she sucked up all the Seduction out of the air, my mind cleared, and I was completely mortified at myself. I tried to get out of the room, but he somehow had locked the door. When he opened it to get me out, I couldn’t even look at him.
“I was so embarrassed with myself, his rejections, the whole situation. Fuck, I still am. It was hard enough listening to him shut me down like that. There’s no way I can face him saying it to me while I have a clear head.”
She blows out a harsh breath and my eyes narrow on her.
“Yemi, be so fucking for real right now.”
Her head jerks and her scowl matches my own.
“What is that supposed to mean?”
“It means that man was rejecting you because you were pumped full of disgusting Seduction and he wouldn’t take advantage of you like that. In no way, shape, or form would he reject you if you did the same exact thing in the comfort of your home.”
