It only cares thatI don’t.
The vast, vast majority of these people choose to be here, Riven, you know that.
I also know the ones who don’t.
I can’t ignore them when a touch of lucidity enters their senses.
Even those who don’t want to be here in Seductions, they want to be in the Abandon.
Regardless of whether you were here, this would happen.
Yeah, but it’s ten times worse with me here.
You can’t…
Stop. Stop. Stop.
I bellow to the room, and if my fists were free, I’d bash my own fucking skull in.
“Release your grip, just a little,”I beg my power.
My Chaos swirls in my belly, trying its damnedest to answer my call. I could fucking sob when my Harmony relents a touch.
Another shrill tears out of my throat when it shuts it back down just as fast.
No. No. No. I can’t do this.
I can’t sit here again, alone, with her at my back and witness this repeatedly.
Agonizingly slow, my Harmony loosens its control. Its force clenches yet again when I shove my Chaos in the small opening it gave me.
What the fuck do you want me to do?
My chest heaves uncontrollably as I refrain from giving my Chaos any command as it slithers through the minuscule fracture my Harmony opens up.
A small chuckle, more like a harsh breath, falls out of me as my Chaos settles around my mind.
That puff of air rolls into a belly-gripping giggle. Well, I can’t reach my belly right now, but if I could, I’d be holding it.
This…
This shift in my powers, thanks to my new boost, I can live with. I can embrace and allow them to work together.
Harmony on the outside but Chaos…
“Sing with the Chaos,
A mind full of madness.
Lashes, lashes,
I don’t feel a thing.”
Thayla
6
No matter how much I squint my eyes, stars never appear.
