I watched his eyes move past my shoulder. Watched his face in the moment that the room changed. The precise second when a man who had controlled everything encountered something his operating system had no protocol for. His stillness was different from his usual stillness. This was the stillness of a man whose floor had dropped.
Good.
Nikos appeared in the doorway with his badge out and his voice doing the practiced cadence of an arrest and I did not wait for the end of the sentence. Because she was in this house and something had happened this morning and every professional instinct I had spent years building was in direct competition with the single overwhelming need to find her and I was not particularly interested in which one won.
“Kane.” Nikos’s voice behind me, sharp with professional irritation.
I kept moving.
The crash reached me before I’d made it halfway to the rear of the house. Metal and cement and the specific violent sound of speed meeting something immovable, and I felt it in my stomach before I processed it in my head. The sound came from the back. The service yard. The rear gate.
She had been in the car.
They had tried to take her and she had done something to stop it and the crash was the result and I was running before I had made a decision to run, down the back corridor and through the kitchen and past Molly who pressed herself against the counter and I did not stop, could not stop, because somewhere betweenthe back door and the service yard the professional distance I maintained between myself and the things that mattered had simply ceased to function and there was only the crash and her name in my head and the specific terror of not knowing yet what I was going to find.
The car was against the gatepost. Crumpled. Steam from the hood. The rear door sprung open and Dimitri half out of it tangled with—
She was fighting.
Of course she was. Of course she was still fighting. This woman who had spent twenty-four years surviving a man who locked her doors and closed her exits and she had gotten in that car and she had not gone quietly, not for a single second, and I felt something move through my chest that was equal parts anguish and fierce, inappropriate pride.
I got to Dimitri. Nikos materialized beside me. He had followed, because whatever else he was, he was good at his job, and between us, we extracted the guard from the door and had him secured in under thirty seconds. Nikos went to Vlad in the front. I went to the rear door.
I opened it.
She was sitting in the back seat. Blood tracked from a wound to her temple down her cheek. The fury in her eyes and her hair half-fallen and her hands braced against the seat in the posture of a woman who had been in a fight and wasn’t entirely certain she was done. The blood was not much, a cut, not serious, but the sight of it did something specific and unpleasant to my insides that I was going to have to examine later when I had the bandwidth for it.
She looked at me.
I had been trained for high-pressure situations. Had spent eleven years managing my reactions in circumstances that required their complete absence. Had built a professional life onthe reliable unavailability of my own feelings during moments that mattered.
“You’re bleeding,” I said, which was not the most composed sentence I had ever produced.
“I noticed,” she said.
Her voice was steady. Even now, in the back of a crashed car with blood on her face and her father being arrested inside the house, she was steady. I had watched her composure from the first night at Midgard and I had catalogued it as armor and I had been partly right. But this wasn’t the social composure, the polished surface she wore for her father’s world. This was something underneath that. The thing she was made of when everything else was stripped away.
I reached in. She took my hand, not helplessly, not because she needed to be lifted out, but with the specific deliberateness of a woman making a choice, and I got her out of the car and onto her feet and then I did the thing I had not planned and would not have stopped even if I’d tried, which was to pull her into my arms and hold on.
She let me.
For a moment the operation moved around us, agents, voices, the methodical sound of a house being properly processed for the first time, and none of it was relevant. I stood in the rear drive of Ivan Morozov’s house with my face in her hair and my arms around her and felt the relief of discovering that something you had been quietly preparing yourself to lose was still there.
She was all right. She was here. She had blood on her face and she had fought them and she was all right.
She pulled back after a moment. Not far, just enough to look at me. Her eyes were dry. Of course they were. She had done whatever needed doing last night and what remained was clearer and harder. There was something in her face I hadn’t seen before, an openness that the crash and the shock hadstripped the management from, and underneath the composure was a woman I recognized entirely. The same one who had stood barefoot on the wood floor of the shibari rig and received each new tether as information. The same one who had saidI’d call the Barnesin the dark like it was the most obvious thing in the world once someone had bothered to ask.
“You were at the gate,” she said.
“Yes.”
“I told you not to come.”
“You did.”
“And?”
“I was deeply inconvenient about it.”
