I stared down at Rian’s toy truck. Who knew that something so broken before could turn into something so... beautiful? I sat back in my chair in complete amazement.
“You fixed it?” I asked.
She nodded. “I fixed it.” She bit her bottom lip and shook her head. “I’m sorry if it was a bad idea to give it to you, or if it stirred up any bad memories. I just thought—”
Before she could finish telling me what she thought, I kissed her.
I had no plans to stop kissing her that night. I thought about kissing her forever.
47Karla
Ash held me in his arms and kissed me deeper than he ever had before. This kiss felt different than the kisses he gave me before. It felt like... love. It felt like healing.
I wanted him to kiss me some more. I wanted his tongue to show mine how much he wanted to kiss me, too. I wanted him to swallow me whole and leave every inch of my being trembling from the mere touch of his mouth against mine.
But not only did I want his kiss. I wanted...him.
Oh my gosh, I wanted Ash so painfully bad. It was an ache that weighed against my heart. I wanted his sexy side and his goofy side, too. I wanted his intellectual thoughts along with his bad dad jokes. I wanted his kindness. His gentle. His funny. His adventure.
All of it. All of him.
And I couldn’t help but hope that he wanted me, too.
All of it. All of me.
The way he kissed me made me feel as if not only did he want all of me but he prayed for me, too.
After Ash, I never thought that a man would pray for someone like me, scars and all. Yet Ash was back, worshipping my mouth as if I was the nectar of his dreams. His hands roamed against my back as I pressed my chest against his. I wanted to live in his kiss. I wanted all my memories to be replaced by this moment alone. Then I’d play it repeatedly for the rest of my life.
“I want you,” I blurted out, not realizing the words werefluttering out of my mouth. Not until one of his hands slid between my thighs. His fingers began to massage my inner thigh as his eyes locked with mine.
His other hand moved to the nape of my neck, stilling me in place. His mouth parted against mine. “You want me?” he asked with a controlled tone. Shivers rolled through my system as he kept those fingers roaming up and down my thigh. Getting closer and closer to my panties.
My body filled with a pool of heat as my hips began to rock toward him. I was trying to get those roaming fingers a little closer to the throbbing temptation between my legs. “Ye-yesss,” I breathed out, my body feeling as if it knew nothing other than vibrations. I wrapped my arms around his neck. “I want you. But I never... I’m a...” I felt ashamed to say it, to tell him that I was a virgin, but he didn’t even need me to tell him.
“It’s OK,” he swore as his mouth brushed against my earlobe. “I’ll take it slow.”
“Swear?” I asked nervously.
“Swear.”
Ash’s fingers moved the fabric of my panties to the left, and he began to rub his fingers up and down my lips, right until he hit my clit. He began to finger my clit in a circular motion, and my hips rolled toward his fingers. Gosh, that felt so good.
So, so good.
He laid me down against the sofa, and I allowed him to have his way with me. I kept grinding against his fingers as he lowered himself down between my legs. He spread my thighs apart before his mouth swept against my clit.
“Yesss...” I whimpered. “Ple-pleaseee...” I begged as Ash kept going down on me. I begged him for more as he tasted every piece of me, licking me up as if he was terrified of wastinga single drop. My whole body began to shake as I grew closer and closer to him finishing me off.
He hadn’t even undressed himself; he solely catered to me and my desires until he made me reach my climax.
Again, and again, and again.
When he finally took off his clothes, he carried me to my bedroom and laid me down. His eyes locked with mine as he trailed kisses from my neck down my whole body. He kissed every inch of me, even my scars, which he called so beautiful.
As he hovered over me, he paused, his hardness brushing against my core. “If you’re not ready...”
“Please,” I said, pulling his lips to mine. “Give me all of you.”
