Later that evening, I have dinner with Annie and James, and Annie gives me a top-of-the-line laptop as a graduation present. I insist that it’s way too much, but she in turn insists that she has no children of her own so the least I can do is let her spoil me when she wants to. I agree to the emotional spoiling, but the financial is less easy, although I am very grateful for the new computer. James shyly gives me a pair of earrings. He’s concerned that I won’t like them because, since he and his girlfriend are no longer together, he had to pick them out on his own. I adore them. The three of us are going to be a good team, I know that, but I’ll miss the Shepherd crowd. The inevitable distance between us has already arrived.
Returning to my dorm room for the evening is brutal. Nearly everything of mine is gone from the room except for my suitcases and futon. Chris is going to help Estelle move my bed into storage after I’m gone tomorrow morning, and she’ll have it for the fall semester of her junior year. Sabin has his license back, and he’s going to drive me to the airport, where I’ll meet Annie and James. I can’t think of anyone better to send me off than my first friend here.
Just as I’m getting flooded with loneliness, the door flies open and Estelle, Eric, and Zach barrel in.
“You’re here!” Estelle says happily. “I was afraid Sabin had you off partying your last night away.”
“Nope. Low-key tonight. I don’t need a hangover for the flight.”
“You ready?” Eric asks.
I shake my head. “No. I don’t know… Maybe.”
We are all looking at one another, knowing this will be the last time we’ll be together like this. Yes, we’ll see one another again, but it won’t be the same. Things are going to change. They already have. I hate good-byes, I really do. I’ve never had to deal with them in this way, and there are no right words that I can think of to tell them how much they mean to me.
“Let’s not draw this out,” I finally say. “This is going to suck, so let’s get it over with.”
“Short and sweet?” Zach offers.
“Yes,” I say. “Make it quick.”
Zach steps in and hugs me. “I know how much you’re hurting. You’re tough, though, and it’s going to be all right.” He kisses me on the cheek and then goes to leave. “I’ll be outside.”
“Bye, Zach.” I wave. I won’t allow more tears.
Estelle reaches into her giant purse that is barely containing the mess of stuff she is carrying around. She hands me a wrapped present. “This is from us.Allof us.”
“Oh, you guys didn’t have to get me anything.”
“You just graduated from college. Of course we did. This is a big day, and we’re proud of you.” Eric sighs. “We love you so much.”
I unwrap the box and have to bite my cheek so that I don’t burst into tears.
“This… this was our mother’s,” Eric says shakily. “She wore this necklace all the time. She had a letter charm for each of our names. C, S, E, and E. And we got you a B. You’re one of us. No matter what.”
Estelle groans. “He means no matter what kind of stupid asshole Chris is.”
“Estelle!” Eric snaps.
“It’s true and you know it. Someone has to say it out loud. Blythe, we think he’s making a huge fucking mistake.” She takes the silver necklace with the small charms from my hand and turns me around. “It should be you. We won’t say that to him, and we will be as decent as possible about it, but none of us are the least bit happy.”
I lift my hair while she does the clasp. Although I don’t want any of them thinking badly of Chris or disapproving of his choices, I can’t help but feel flattered. She turns me around again. “There. It looks perfect on you.” She looks at my expression and clamps a hand over my mouth. “Stop it. Don’t say thank you to us. This is us thankingyou. I’m going to take my hand away, and you’re not going to say it, agreed?”
I nod and she drops her hand.
Eric clears his throat. “I’m… I’m gonna go after Zach. He’s leaving tomorrow, too, so…”
“I understand,” I say.
Another good-bye. Another hug. “Love you.”
“Love you, too,” I tell him.
He holds me for a long time and then leaves before either of us loses it. He doesn’t have to say anything else to me.
Estelle is next. My roommate and my tough-as-shit friend.
She takes a deep breath. “Okay. I’m going out for the night, as I’m sure you guessed.”
