I am present, but I’mnotthe same man I was an hour ago.
Nothing is embarrassing anymore. Not my current position, not my inability to control my emotions, or the fact that I’m falling in love with a man. It’s overwhelming relief. Carey has just given me the greatest gift I could have ever imagined, and now my body is my gift to him.
I stretch out my fingers, and Carey intertwines his with them.
He kisses my neck, cheek, and tear stained eyes.
I’m ripe for the taking, literally in position, but he’s not moving. He’s just holding me. Matching our breaths.
I wriggle beneath him, and one of his hands slips to hold my waist.
I rock my hips and feel the heat of his balls against my hole.
“What are you doing?” I whine, desperate to be touched.
Carey digs his fingers in until I stop moving. “I’m giving you a chance to catch your breath before I fuck you dumb. So quit being a brat.”
“No,” I say, and rock again, clenching my jaw through the sting of his nails.
“I thought you were being a good boy?”
“And I thought you were gonna fuck me?”
“Tek—”
“I don’t need to catch my breath. I don’t even need to be conscious when you’re done.”
“That’s not how this is gonna work.”
I rock again. “Why not?”
Carey holds my waist with both hands. “Stop it.”
“You just said you were going to fuck me dumb. So fucking do it.”
There’s a prickly sting against my outer thigh as Carey spanks me in a new spot.
“Do it again.”
“You’re not the one in charge,” he growls.
“I’m not trying to be, but I don’t wanna wait any longer. You already gave me so much, now it’s my turn to give to you…”
I don’t know if it’s my words—or if he even knows he does it—but Carey ruts against me.
“…I need you inside me…”
With his hands still on my waist, Carey straightens his arms. His weight is no longer on me, but now he’s pushing my hips into the couch.
“…I’ve been begging for it for weeks…”
He spanks me again.
“…You need to fuck me, already, and… I don’t want you to use a condom.”
“Tek—”
“I’m serious. I’ve used one with every person since…” I look back at Carey who’s now resting back on his haunches. “We suck each other’s dick without a care, so… I don’t want anything between us.”
