“None of us is fine, Tilly. That’s the thing about people, they are never fine.” She looks at me seriously and takes my hand in her’s.
“We all have our issues. It makes us human.”
I look out the window. The restaurant is in the mall, and we are pretty high up. I can see thousands of buildings, taller and shorter, and each one filled with people.
So many people, everyone in a different situation right now. In different chapters of their life.
Someone might be celebrating a birth, and someone might be mourning the loss of a loved one.
It’s a bittersweet feeling knowing so many new lives are created will many others are lost.
The same doctor who just lost a life could also be delivering one the same day.
It’s the circle of life, a very messy and beautiful process.
“You know, I am so lucky to have met you.” I turn to Yana. “Millions of people, and we’re still sitting across from each other.”
She smiles. “I think you’re right.”
She squeezes my hand.
“Love you, Yana.”
“Love you too, Tilly-bean.”
I look at her and realize this is a friendship I’m not willing to lose.
“Hey Yana, I–”
The server comes and brings us our food, breaking my confidence boost.
“Thank you.” She tells him as he walks away, and we start eating.
“You were saying?”
“Oh, uh, it was something about the flight, I don’t remember now.”
I meet her eyes and smile, even though I know I’m making things worse.
Be careful, Tilly, this is a dangerous game you’re playing.
Tilly. How could you lie to your only friend?
How could you not tell her? You are pathetic for that.
What will she say when she finds out?
How will she react when she finds out her best friend lied to her about such an important topic?
I don’t think telling her is a good idea now.
You are such a disappointment, Tilly.
A stupid, immature girl who has no idea what she just did.
Now there is no chance of Yana liking the real you.
How could she, with everything you did?
