I thought I was ready for this. I'd even read up on it to be sure so that I didn’t disappoint or ruin this for her. Then Teddy goes and says she loves me. Those are words I have never had uttered to me. Nor have I said them to another person. Fuck, I didn’t understand love until now. It was only a concept, but it was also a thing I never bore witness to.
Between that and all that went down at the fight, I don't feel normal. My calm is a different kind. It's the deadly calm that runs deeper and darker. My Zolotse could have been hurt tonight.
The stakes in my life are higher than they have ever been. It makes me unhinged, which you never want to be. That's when things can become fucked up. When it came to feelings and emotions being involved, there wasn't much there until Teddy. I could flip them on and off easily enough. I left them off for the most part.
No wonder Tristan is an edgy asshole all the time. He's had Lily for years, and he's breaking his own rules over her. At this point, he's going to be more unhinged than all of us. He's not going to take too kindly to me taking his girl, but maybe don't do shit that has your girl running from you in the first place.
I'm starting to understand now why he keeps her under lock and key. I'd do the same if Teddy was trying to get away from me. It’s easier if you get them to come to you, not that I have advice on that.
But if Teddy is happy, then all is good in the world. It can’t be too hard for him to keep this Lily happy, but then again, I don’t recall ever seeing Tristian smile before, although I wasn’t paying much attention. He’s a cold bastard, though, and it would likely stick out.
"Are you okay?" Teddy asks when I pull into the parking garage.
I grunt a response, which always makes her smile. Thank fuck, because words have never been my strong suit. "You're intense," Teddy tells me as we get off the elevator. I have my hand wrapped around her wrist, with no plans to release it until we're in our room with the door closed.
I sweep her up into my arms when we enter our suite so that I can move us faster to the bedroom. I don't stop until I'm at the end of the bed, putting Teddy on her feet.
"So." Teddy rocks on her heels, a coy smile on her shiny lips that tonight taste of strawberries.
"Sweater." I grunt for her to take it off. I’m trying to be better with words, but she gets me so worked up that they elude me most times.
I walk over to the round table off to the side and remove my weapons along with the vials I'd gone to collect. I take off my boots and then pull my shirt off. When I turn back around, Teddy is standing there with only her underwear on. The womanis pure temptation. Can anyone truly blame me for taking her that day and lying? There’s no doubt in my mind that I would make the same decision over and over again if it meant having her.
Teddy folds her arms over her chest, pushing her beautiful tits up. I never understood the fascination with tits before. I had thought of them as nothing more than what a mother used to feed her young. It's a whole other fucking spin on it when they’re the tits of the woman you want to put that child inside of. Now they are one of the most alluring things in the world.
I swallow hard, my jaw tight, and all my muscles feel strained.
"Are you only going to grunt and growl?" she teases me, licking her lips.
"I love you, Zolotse." Teddy's whole face goes soft. Those are the words I wanted to say before anything else.
"I know you do." She reaches behind her and unclips her bra, making it fall to the floor. My mouth waters at the sight of her dusty pink nipples that are already hard. "I love you, too."
I'm on her before she finishes her sentence, lifting her into my arms and placing her on the mattress. I kiss her long and hard before my mouth moves down to her nipples. My mind imagines them one day filled with milk for the child she will have carried for us. I push them together, licking and sucking at both of them.
"Killian, sweetheart." Teddy writhes on the bed, wanting more. I knee her thighs farther apart to grind my cock into her panty-clad pussy, making her hips buck. Her breathing picks up, and when I think she's close, I pull back, releasing her nipple.
I stare down at her. Teddy's cheeks are flushed, and her eyes glazed over with desire, desire for me.
"Tell me that I can come inside of you." I reach down, sliding my hand into her panties. Finding her soaked for me pleases me. I love how responsive her body is to me.
"Yes." Her hips buck again when I stroke her clit a couple of times. "I want that." I cup her cheek with my palm. I'm on emotional overload. It's hard to find words, ones that she deserves. "I know." Teddy runs her finger up and down my jaw. “Show me,” she tells me, knowing me so well already. That’s all I need from her.
I lean down, taking her mouth in a kiss that I hope conveys everything she makes me feel. She moans into my mouth as I continue to work her clit. I can tell she’s close, but I don’t want her to come yet.
I move down her body, settling in between her thighs. Teddy's breath is already catching, and I know she's barely holding on. It's not going to take much to get my girl there. That's Teddy, though. She's not going to fight it or question it. She jumps in headfirst, all full of life. It's bubbling from her, and it's addictive. To simply be next to her brings warmth.
The folds of her sex are glistening for me. I kiss them gently as I spread her thighs even more with my shoulders. I dip my tongue through her slit, getting a deeper taste of her. I slide my hands under her ass and lift her off the bed partly so I can slide my tongue farther down.
I stiffen it before thrusting it into her tight, untouched hole that is for me alone. I am the only man that will ever know her this way. Teddy is mine, the one pure thing in this world that I can claim as my own. I don’t deserve her, but that’s not going to stop me from taking her. I’m determined to leave my mark on her the same way she has left hers on me.
I glide my fingers through her folds, stroking her clit before I replace my tongue with one finger and then another. I pull them in and out, getting her ready for my cock. I've been doingso every time I get my mouth on her. Teddy might be soft with curves, but she's tiny, especially compared to me. I know I can’t take away all of the pain, but I want to make sure she endures as little as possible.
Latching on to her clit, I hook my fingers inside of her, making sure it gets her G-spot. I quickly unzip my jeans and push them down. Teddy's cunt flutters around my fingers as she goes off for me, crying out in pleasure.
I shift up her body, replacing my mouth on her clit with my thumb to keep milking the orgasm from her. I pull my fingers out and press the head of my cock into her. Not wanting to draw this out, I sink inside of her in one fluid thrust, letting my body weight push through the barrier.
Teddy lets out a gasp, and I kiss her. I loathe the pain I have put her through. It cuts me up inside. Other people's pain has never mattered to me before. But with Teddy, everything is different.
