James,
I know it’s been a few months since we talked about this, but I FINALLY TOLD THEM!
It was weird and kind of terrible, but could be worse, I guess. They didn’t kick me out or anything, but my father went stone silent and my mother started crying. She eventually got up and went into her room, and it was just me and dad. And all he said was,“thank you for telling us”.
They’ve been in their room with the door closed for like an hour and I wish I knew what they were saying in there. Fortunately, I have a shift at the diner this afternoon and will be heading out in like 10 minutes.
I’ve never been more excited to have to work before. I think everything will be okay, but I wish it had gone better.
I don’t think they weremad, but I could taste their disappointment.
Ugh... I wish you could have been there. I think it would have made it easier. Hell, I wish you were here right now. I swear the only thing that keeps me going is our letters. I’ve never had someone I trusted as much as I trust you, and we’ve never even met.
I don’t want to seem weird or anything, but sometimes I daydream about us hanging out. Chit-chatting about this or that… maybe people-watching as we have coffee. Do you like coffee? Everyone says I drink way too much of the stuff, but it’s like the only thing that gives me life.
How’s the mechanics classes coming? I know you said it’s your favorite part of the week because you get out of your cell and get to work with your hands for a few hours, but are you actually liking mechanics? Your dad owns a shop somewhere, right? Are you gonna work there when you get out?
I have to head to work, but I hope you are doing well.
I wish you were here,
Avery
Avery
4077 Boulder Crest Lane
Uptown, Emberford
I don’t feel like I deserve how sweet you are to me. Even now, sitting here in this dark cell, I feel like the luckiest guy in the world to have your attention.
You told me that when you’re sad, or having a bad day, you go back through and re-read the letters I’ve sent to you, and I haven't stopped smiling since. My mind constantly flashes to you curled up in your favorite reading chair by the window as you wrap yourself up in my words.
I haven't been able to keep all your letters. There aren’t a lot of hiding places around here, and if some of these guys found them, I’d be in big trouble. Most of the men in here are fucking idiots, Avery. They don’t even deserve to know that you exist. I’m still trying to convince myself that I’m worthy of your time and attention.
Not that I have much, but I’d give everything to wrap my arms around you. To hold you close to my chest and feel your breath against my skin.
I know I’ve still got two more years in here, but the thought of eventually being in the same room with you, the thought of touching you.The things I want to do… the way I would taste you
I need to be careful of what I say. I know sometimesthey read these letters for security. I’ve heard of them intercepting inmate letters and not even informing the person. The very last thing I want to happen is for them to pull one of these and have it not get to you.
Ineverwant you to think I’m ignoring you. I would never do that.
I don’t want to scare you, but I think I’m falling in love with you. Is that possible? My desire for you gets stronger with every letter you send.
I hope this note doesn’t freak you out, but I’ve made a habit of hiding my feelings my entire life, and I’m tired of it. I don’t want to hideanythingfrom youever!
I love you, Avery. I know it seems like there are so many mountains for us to climb, and I’m still stuck in this cage, but one day I’ll make our dreams come true. I promise.
All my love,
James
Avery
4077 Boulder Crest Lane
Uptown, Emberford
