If only my omega would shut up so I can think! I don’t need her lustfully chantingalpha alpha alpha.
She’s still an idiot around them. Clearly too horny from our first sexual touch since my last heat that she doesn’t realize it’s Cato touching us, not one of our alphas.
I wish she would’ve stayed dormant until I finished my training.My omega was never very present in my mind, but suddenly she thinks it’s time to find a pack, and of course, who better than our hot bosses.
Cato hasn’t tried to go any further, which is for the best. My racing thoughts reminded me I’m not supposed to do this, no matter how much I want to. I don’t want to ruin our careers.
No fingering allowed.
I grab Cato’s wrist before I change my mind and push it down to my knee. He squeezes my thigh and rests his hand there, no more rubbing.
I let out a shaky breath.
Now that I’ve found my resolve, I’m finally able to pay attention to the movie. It looks like the guy’s dog had puppies while I was distracted, little puffballs running around as he dances with the female lead in the falling snow.
Their romance is so easy.
Stupid fictional characters.
Chapter 22
Hestia
The rest of our break passes much the same. Me, struggling not to hop on my bosses.
My bosses, seemingly just as interested, but likewise dancing around our feelings in order to remain professional.
Together, but not.
While I haven’t had any other close encounters, no more almost kisses, no more almost fingering, there’s a tension in the air. We all know something is going on between us, but no one can act on it.
So, instead of banging like crazy, we spent our break doing festive winter things, which were a decent distraction. It was fun, and I crossed a bunch of things off my FWTTDBID list.
We went into town a few more times, did a little shopping, tried all the holiday menus at restaurants. Here in the mountains, we went skating at a pond, sledding on the nearby slopes, and had a few more snowball fights.
We spent our time inside baking, listening to holidaymusic, and getting cozy on the couch, either watching movies or enjoying the warmth of the fire while reading, relaxing, or knitting in my case.
I thought about taking a few days away for myself, but when it came down to it, I couldn’t leave them. The only thing worse than hiding my feelings was the thought of not being near them.
The one time we were apart was during my doctor’s appointment. I told them I was due for my annual checkup, but really I had to make sure my suppressants are working. It turns out they are, they just can’t suppress my feelings.
The more time I’ve spent with Orion, Henri, Charm, Magnus, and Cato, learning their little habits and quirks, seeing the way they care for me and each other, has only made those feelings stronger. It’s not just physical attraction.
I already knew how amazing they were at work. I told myself I was lucky to have them as my teammates, but it’s more than that. I want us to be more than that.
I can’t lie to myself anymore.
I think if it was just the shift in mindset to include finding a pack in my life plan, I could have accepted it earlier. But because it’s mybossesthat I want, I’ve been suppressing everything.
Even though I’ve accepted my feelings now, I still have to keep them hidden.
Once I finish my training period and get certified as a rescuer, we’ll be on the same level. There won’t be a power imbalance, and HR will be fine with us dating.
Just 701 days left until I can ask them out.
The only other concern is what I’ll do about my heats. I could hire temporary alphas like I used to?—
The thought makes me physically ill.
