“I don’t know. You seem shocked or something, not happy.” I shrug and look toward the house hoping Lex is coming to save me.
He chuckles. “Yeah a little. Was I supposed to cry with excitement?” He laughs again and I want to die because, yeah that would have been ideal.
I lie instead. “No, obviously not.”
“So, don’t run away just yet.”
He pulls me in for a hug again and I melt against him. How can I love him so much, so fucking much? How can he be so unaffected, while I am dying inside?
Sam
Fuck!
That is my first thought at seeing her for the first time in two years. Every minute in that cage I thought of her and my mind did her no justice. I forgot about the pale dust of freckles over her nose. The rose-colored lips that God graced her with. I know beneath the hoodie between her breasts is my tattoo.
I don’t know how to act right now. I want to scream, and yell then carry her off to my room for a month. I don’t though. I hurt her, I know that I did, and I am cautious to see what ground we are on.
I came out of the joint with the resolve that I threw us away, so I had no right to seek her out. Seeing her right here before me reminds me I am a fool. There is no way I can stay away from her.
She’s my butterfly.
“Look, Pet”-
“Sully?” I hear a voice from behind me, one I don’t recognize. Turning I see a short pixie looking blonde I have never met before.
I straighten my back, feeling Mya do the same. Fuck! I don’t need any intrusions here. Assuming she is a guest of a guest I blow her off gently.
“Yeah, that’s me. Uh, you need the bathroom or something?” I ask thinking it is the only reason she would seek me out.
Mya watches her suspiciously and I want to ease her fears.
“One second Pet.” I say as gently as I can and walk toward the strange girl.
“No. I am Tatum. Asa invited me.” She says and steps toward me a familiar glint in her eye. This is a tatterfly and I know why Asa invited her. “He thinks we would hit it off?”
I hear Mya gasp behind me and all I can do is cringe knowing this looks like shit and feels it too.
Why? Why when the moment arises to air our shit and see where we stand, do I get fucked?
It’s fate. That shitty bitch fate refuses to let me be happy.
“Nope. Not happening.” I say and turn to leave when this chick grabs my arm trying to stop me. “Mya, wait.” I call out when I see her make her way toward Lex who is walking toward us.
What the actual fuck is happening right now. Panic sets in when I see my girl distance herself from me.
My girl?
Fuck! She’s always been mine. My dumb ass figured it out too late.
“You haven’t given me a chance to show you what I can do.” The random just keeps talking like I give a shit, in a kiddie voice no less, that irritates me.
I leave her standing there and try to stop Lex from getting in theEscalade.
“Lex, Mya just stop a minute, please.” I ask. Mya is sitting in the passenger seat looking anywhere but at me as she bites at her nails. I look to Lex for help.
“Please, just two minutes Lex?”
She shakes her head ‘no’ vehemently before stepping out of theEscalade, slamming the door. “You”- she says rudely pointing at the random girl, “get the fuck out of here now.” She then cocks her hip and folds her arms over her chest and glares at me.
