Damn right she was. I had her riding my mouth for twenty minutes before I finally fucked her. “I won’t complain babe.”
She laughs and saunters off to double check everything and I think I have hidden the panic.
No such luck.
“Sam?”
I look at her. “Yeah, Pet.”
She watches me fore a minute with questioning eyes and I know I am busted. “What is it Pet?”
She looks away and starts cleaning the mirrors for the eleventeenth time, but it is a distraction. “I know that you wake up every night. I know it isn’t to fuck me. I want you to tell me why, but I won’t push you.” She sprays more cleaner and keeps wiping all while I feel the panic come on hard. “I am gonna stay right here, cleaning these windows and if you want to tell me I am all ears.”
I know I need to tell her, but I am scared if I say it out loud then it’s in the universe and I will jinx us. “I uh… I’m scared.” There. I said what I needed without explanation.
“Of what?” She asks, still cleaning with her back to me. I know she is doing it so I will talk, but now I need to see her.
I walk towards her. “Come here, Pet.” I say and sit with my back against the mirror. She does and pull her to my lap, so she is straddling me. It doesn’t suck having her over me, but I can’t be one track minded here.
I hold her hips and kiss her on the forehead. “I am happy, so fucking happy baby.”
She brushes her fingers along my beard and kisses my cheek. “That scares you?”
I nod. “I am terrified that another awful thing I need to survive is around the corner. Like fate is just waiting to fuck me up the ass.”
I see her love for me as it radiates from her perfect face. “I was happy with Deja and Kace… then she cheated, Kace was abducted and it was ten years of hell for the worst outcome. I found you in that nightmare and even a glimpse of happiness…” I stop and scrub my hands over my face before letting my head fall back on the mirror. “Then I killed a man and went to prison…lost you…”
I say nothing else, its all out now and fate is free to fuck me.
“You never lost me Sam. Even after everything I have always been yours.” She says and cups my neck lifting so I look at her. “What Deja did was awful and in the events that followed immediately it was the last thing to mourn. But you both became close in the end because nobody loved Kace more than you and Deja. Killing Tenpenner was something that happened. There was no right or wrong in his death, he just needed to cease existing and you did that. Prison… Babe, that was a due paid. With your release came a new chapter and it is ours.”
Hot damn.
Mya can cut through shit like a hot knife through butter.
I cup her neck and pull her against my chest so I can hold her. “I haven’t been fair to you Mya. I never give you the chance to prove your strength. I threw us away in prison, even before that I fought my attraction to you because I didn’t think you could handle how dark I can get. But you handle it like a champ, Pet. I get in my head where its dark and you come right in after me to pull me back out. I …”
When I pause, she pulls back to look at me? “What baby?”
Her face is so gentle and kind it reminds me for the millionth time why she is mine. “I want you forever. Every morning, every night. I’m gonna marry you one day and give you babies and make sure all your dreams come true. Move in with me.”
She has these big joyous tears in her beautiful eyes. “Really?”
I pull her against me again and hold her tight. “Fuck yes. I can’t be on my own anymore. You are my tribe Pet.”
