“You on anything or do I need a rubber?”
I nod. “I’m on birth control.”
He strokes his cock before me, giving me the show of my life. “I’m gonna go slow, Pet. No way this won’t hurt, but it will get easier every stroke.”
I nod and can’t help but tighten in fear when the cold of the barbell circles the tight hole of my pussy. “You want me inside you? Then, let me in.”
Holy fuck, his words slay me. “I’m trying, just nerves I think,” I try to explain, as he lowers his chest to me and kisses me.
“You want it to be me right, Mya?” He asks, his cock is stroking against my clit, eliminating the fear from seconds before.
“Yes. Only you, Sam.”
“That’s right, only me. This is mine, Pet. Tonight or some other night, it’s still mine. So, tell me what you want and I will give it to you.”
There was no hesitation, no thought. “Tonight, now, I want you here and now. My nerves, your sorrow… this is us, only us. Give me all of you.”
He says nothing. He just watches me as his hips pull back as we lay chest to chest on my bed and in one swift second, he was inside of me until the last thing keeping us apart was torn away.
I cry out from the sensation of pain and passion, and fear, overload of it all. “Shhh,you’re okay, Pet. I have you and I will take the pain away.”
He pulls back, sliding effortlessly back inside of me until I am pulling my legs higher, desperate to feel him deeper. “Roll with me, Pet.” He says. I tuck my feet under his knees, rolling until I am above him.
“Do your worst, Mya. I’m yours to command here. You want me deeper? Sit up and ride it. You’ll feel me everywhere.”
I do as he asks and any fear that I wouldn’t know what to do or where to begin, is gone. I can literally do anything that feels good and he loves it. I feel powerful, beautiful, and wanted in this moment, and it only spurs me on.
“That’s it. Take that dick, Mya. Own it baby. You own it, you own me.” His hands stroke along my cheeks as he says it and his voice shoots through me with the emotion in his tone.
I grab his hands and bring them to my breasts, needing to feel him touch me. “I want you closer, Sam. I can’t get enough.”
He grabs my hips and sits up until his back is against my headboard. I grip his shoulders and rock, even deeper, ever harder. Every muscle in my body feels him. I arch, stretch, roll my neck, and I feel him… and I am so close to explosion that I want to chase it down and detonate.
His hands go to my hips, guiding me, helping me. “You’re so close, Pet. You are gonna drench me and the bed. I need to see you cum for me, Mya. Come for me.”
His words were the cue and I explode, digging my nails in his shoulders. Everything got tighter, wetter, and hotter when he started thrusting up into me, holding my hips, thrusting wildly.
“Those fucking sexy eyes. Look at me, Pet. Watch your man cum for you.”
I watched every breath. Every thump seen from his chest. I watched as sweat beaded against his skin… I took it all in and relished in the beauty of us together. There could never be a more perfect moment in my life than the one I am in now.
There was no question in my mind, not a single doubt, that he is meant to be mine.
Sully
I lay beside Mya, my thoughts on the emotions running through me. I will always feel the profound loss of Kace, but here and now, I feel Mya. I care for her. Fuck, I do. I can’t deny it anymore and for the first time in ten years I am holding someone precious to me. I am overcome by the emotion that being with her builds in me. There is something about Mya that undoes me … like she sees the broken pieces of my heart and doesn’t try to fix me or the broken heart in my chest. I want to give her everything, all of me. I want to heal with Mya at my side and I want to smile again.
God help me, but she is saving me.
