Stay back. Don't you dare trip and fall, he won't catch you baby. He is fragile, you know he is fragile and you are the chill in the eye of that storm. That chill that tells you this is not gonna end well.
Stay back. You will regret this. You will hope like hell you’ll live again but you will not recover. This.... this will annihilate you. Do not listen to your heart, it fails you every time.
But... I love him. That is the only response to the fear screaming in my mind every time I think his name.
Stay back, God damn you! This is already over how can you not see it? Feel it yet? That burn to run to him and bare your soul in hopes he will finally see you? Don't do it girl. Stay back!
But... I love him. I can't deny that regardless of my fear. If I lose everything in the fight, I am no worse off.
Stay back, stay back, stay back.... please.... my voice will fade out to a whisper if you'll listen to me now. He cannot give to you what you need. This is not a romance novel sweet girl, it is your heart. You cannot save him, he has to save him. Only then will he decide if you're enough.
But.... I love him. I can't stand by as he suffers. Not when I am certain he wants me just as much.
Stay back! Fool don't make me laugh. You are not HER, not the one who crushed him. SHE is who he wants, you are a filler, a Band-Aid... you are the whisper of hope and that is the equivalent to a day dream. Sweet girl, stay back.
But... I love him. She loved him too, endings don't matter when compared to the beginning and our beginning was magic.
Stay back! Don't think of meant to be or love at first sight. Silly girl, you are in this alone. Look at him....just look at him.
I am looking at him.....
I can see the shock in his face when I say that and leave the stage. I knew he was trying to hide in the shadows but I could spot him in a crowd, I swear my bones know when that man is close.
I watch him as he watches me, I can see his nostrils flair and the look in his eyes is so intense it burns me. He wants me right now, more than he ever has and with that look I am done denying it anymore.
I want him just as much.
I look over my shoulder to the hall behind the stage, then look back at him. My eyes telling him without words my intent. I leave the stage the instant I see a faint nod and he is off the stool and walking fast in an almost jog to that same hallway I am heading to. I make it to the hall behind the stage and stand in front of the door that leads to the parking lot and dumpsters. I look at my phone there is time before they start cleaning for the night and the in and out from the Brew to the dumpsters begins.
I only need 5 minutes, enough to tell him where we are going.
