She giggles and twists to look at me. "Oh yeah?"
"Yeah, other than your pussy. That's a feast I'm having for breakfast"
She laughs again and I love the sound. Love that I gave up the mourning to be in this moment. "Oh yeah?"
I nod with a chuckle. "The minute we wake up, the fuckin gloves are off and I'll be on you with everything I have."
"Mmmm, can't wait." She leans up to look at the alarm clock. "It's technically morning now…"
I groan, on a yawn. "Woman…"
She gets up from my arms and ties her robe as I watch with tired eyes. "Might as well sleep naked, easier access." I say and she leans over to kiss me then heads to the kitchen and flips off all the lights.
"What's up?" I ask when she comes back in and climbs in next to me, I feel half asleep.
"Nothing." She whispers and pulls the blanket up over me and rests her head on my shoulder. "Go to sleep you're so tired…"
I only caught half of what she said, as I drifted off… But I swear she said she was sorry.
Bright
He was so sweet and peaceful as he slept beside me and I hated myself. I have been so occupied with him, and my feelings for him that it didn't hit me until tonight when Raleigh asked if I believed in long distant relationships.
I don't.
I barely believe in relationships at all, long distant or otherwise. And this would be an all over the world relationship. I had so much that tied me to California. I had him that tied me to Washington. Now I lay here plagued by the thought that he had done a complete turnaround to win me, to keep me, because he believed in me. I didn't think of a future with him, because I didn't see one.
How could you? You were in the shadow of a ghost.
I shake the thought and trace his face, knowing tomorrow wouldn’t be spent making love.
It would be spent saying goodbye.
I rolled from the bed and sent an email to Carrie instead of Tayla telling her that I was needed at home and wouldn’t be back until after Thanksgiving break.
Now I needed the distance. I couldn’t stay and fall in love with the most unattainable man I had ever met. Men were my thing, I read them, played with them and left them in my wake. My changes brought me Noah, his changes brought him me. And I was going to ruin it all.
I climbed back in bed and kissed him softly, unable to force myself to leave in the night while he slept. "I am so sorry Noah…" I said and stood to gather all of my things. I called a car service to come get me so I could get to SeaTac in time.
I called Raleigh and woke him up, stepping out on the balcony I cried and told him everything. He was angry with me, but like always I had his loyalty and he was meeting me in the lobby in twenty minutes.
Once I was dressed I took the remaining bags from the bathroom and opened the door, to see him sitting in the bed with a cigarette, waiting on me.
"Fuckin didn't see that comin'." He said and ashes the smoke on the tray at the side table. I could see the hurt, but he was hiding how bad.
"Noah…" I couldn’t find my words as tears welled.
He stood from the bed and made his way to me. "Have the decency I do, to tell the fangirls it's me not them."
"It's not that- "
"Bullshit!" He yells and stands straight so we are eye to eye. "Tell me you don't want me Bright."
"Noah, this is just a lot to think on and I need to clear my head."
He laughs. "I get you want to clear your head, you go to the bus and get distance. You don't book a flight and bail in the middle of the night." He turns to walk away from me, spinning to drill me with his stare. "Tell me you don't want me?" He demands louder this time.
I can't answer him though, there is no way I can look at him and tell him I don't. "I'm unsteady- "
'"You're a fuckin pussy baby." He says and storms past me to the bathroom slamming the door in my face and locking it. "Leave the key card on the table." He yells and I hear the water turn on and know he has dismissed me.
I do as he says, and leave him. I finally left for reasons I never saw coming.
