I really hadn’t been myself at all since Dane strolled into town.
“Okay. Sure. I get that,” I said. “But you’re happily married now. Don’t you have any wisdom to share?”
“Um…”
“Katie, come on.”
“I’m trying! Let’s see. Okay, why was it the best sex you ever had?”
“Because he’s hot, Katie. I’m pretty sure he may actually be Lucifer. And I don’t even care, that’s how good it was. When he’s inside me, I’d be willing to hand over my soul for eternal damnation as long as he just keeps doing what he’s doing.”
“Wow.Okay… but you’ve dated hot guys before. Like model hot. You probably could’ve hooked up with any number of rock stars over the past few years, and yet you didn’t. Why was that?”
“I don’t know. Not interested?”
“Right. You have access to many hot men. So it wasn’t justhotthat’s got you all freaked out.”
“Okay, it was also… I don’t know. Special. It felt like he touched something inside. Like a secret g-spot I didn’t know I had, that’s wired up to my heart or something.”
“Really?”
“I don’t know, it was so powerful, when I came I think a tear slipped out. I just fell into his arms and he held me afterwards.”
“Oh!” Katie made a little noise.
“Did you just swoon?”
“Um, I may have. Just a little.”
“You are not allowed to swoon over my husband!”
“Why not? That sounded amazing.”
“Because he’s the devil. Am I not pronouncing it properly? He’sevil. He’s a bad, bad man who does bad things.”
“Like what?” she said dubiously.
“Like fire people for a living, and I’m pretty sure for shits and giggles, too. We’ve been over this.”
“Right. He makes businesses more efficient. That’s not really a hate crime, Dev.”
I huffed out a breath.
It smelled like him in here. The whole penthouse smelled like him, and I both loved and hated it. How the hell was I going to live here for four damn months?
Why did I marry him and think it would be no big deal? That I could handle this?
That I’d just keep hating him even if we fucked repeatedly?
Was I smoking crack or something? Like, so much crack that I was unaware I was smoking crack, and making decisions that made zero fucking sense even when I thought they did?
“What am I doing?” I asked Katie.
“Um… I hate to say I don’t know,” she said carefully. “But… I really don’t know.”
“Why did I think I could do this?”
“You can do this, Devi,” she said gently. “You can do anything.”
