“No.” That wouldn’t be enough information for him, so I took his hand and helped him to stand. “You’re right. I do like touching you.”
He smiled and shrugged. “A lot of Doms seemed to need that, but you listen when touching is...difficult.”
“You’re good at telling me how you’re feeling.” Or showing me when he started to panic. “Another way we’re good together.”
Nodding, he made a quiet hum as I ran my hand over his back and slowly released him. “We have good communication.”
“I think that’s one of our best qualities as a couple.” We were definitely better than average in that category. “Another is how much chemistry we have.”
He gave a soft laugh as I made sure to look very proud of myself. “You made me come.”
“I did.” I’d done a good job at it too. “Have your thoughts on that changed any while we’ve had dinner?”
Stepping back, I let him think about the question as I started putting everything away. Ferris took a moment before he started to help, but with as much as he was processing, it made sense. Working together seemed to get us finished before he was ready to answer, so I led him through the house turning off lights while he thought.
Nothing in his behavior made me worry but I was curious about how he was feeling. He gave me a clue as we got to the bedroom by taking charge and leading me over to our discussion chair. As soon as I sat down, he perched on my lap, adorably serious expression firmly in place. “I enjoyed orgasming.”
“I’m glad.” What else would he need to hear? “I liked making you come but just playing with you and teasing you was a lot of fun.”
That had him studying me, so I thought I needed to explain a bit more. “I thoroughly enjoy just making you feel good even if it doesn’t lead to an orgasm. I know we talked about that originally but my views on it haven’t changed over time.”
He blinked like his brain was shifting information around.
“So if it doesn’t happen again, you’re not going to be frustrated? I don’t want you to be disappointed if it’s a one-time thing.” He was serious about that but there was no way we’d have to worry about that.
“So far what I’ve learned about our sexual compatibility is that I need cuddles from you and I’m getting appropriate levels of that. We’re good there because just the times you’ve enjoyed my muscles fulfill that need.” He didn’t seem to see the muscle worship as cuddling but it worked the same for me.
“I love having you caged and naked for me.” That would never get old. “I’m also thoroughly enjoying exploring things you might like. Such as the prostate stimulation. That doesn’t always have to lead to an orgasm but I loved the way you enjoyed it. That wouldn’t change if our goal shifted to being subspace or just using it as a relaxing reward on stressful days.”
“We probably shouldn’t connect those two in my head or I might start overreacting just to get my reward.” Ferris sighed, making me fight back a smile. “My default state is drama when I’m upset, so I don’t need to send my body mixed signals.”
“I don’t know...I’d like teaching your body to become aroused every time you think of me helping you through a problem.” His slightly confused jolt said he hadn’t thought about that. “I like control and it would fall into that category for me.”
“I hadn’t thought about it that way.” Cocking his head, he started turning the idea over in his head. “I like doing things that make you happy...especially when they make us both happy.”
He shrugged when I finally chuckled. “I can’t help it. I like being right.”
Ah.
“You do a lot of things right when it comes to our relationship.” I couldn’t leave it there. “But even if you did something wrong or hurt my feelings, that wouldn’t change anything between us.”
Ferris wasn’t the type to cheat or try to steal my TV, so I wasn’t worried about anything truly terrible happening.
But his frown...
“I’m going to do this right.” Sighing would not have been the correct response, but I had to remind myself of that several times before it stuck. “It’s important.”
He was downplaying his feelings and we both knew it.
“Thank you for letting me know how important it is to you, but we’re going to have to work on a plan to do our best to keepit that way.” How would we make that work? “To start with, I think we need to make a rule that once a week or once a day we’ll debrief any problems or issues we ran into.”
That was the best place I could think of to start but I was going to have to do some research about truly solid relationships.
Ferris blinked, probably surprised I hadn’t tried to talk him out of the “doing it right” part. “I think that sounds reasonable.”
Ha.
Shocked him.
