“What?” I asked.
“I don’t know, but now I’m just upset I don’t remember and like I forced that on you too.”
That was actually really sweet. “You got me the answer I needed about whether I was drugged or not. I appreciate that.” I gave him the best smile I could as I turned to him a bit more. “Besides, going forward we can have sex without either of us on the potion and one day we won’t even care about the three times one of us doesn’t remember.”
He frowned and pushed to sit up. “One day?”
I gave a half shrug. “I’m sure couples don’t remember every time they have sex or—”
“We’re not a couple.”
I snorted. “Of course not. I’m not an idiot, Thorn.” I wanted to roll my eyes when he seemed to relax. “That’s the goal though. I mean it’s not like this is a one-night stand. We’re moving towards—”
“Sagan, I’m not trying to be prince,” he said with his eyebrows scrunched together. “You think I’m going to settle for that when I was meant to be Alpha of Starhaven? It was stolen from me. I’m going to get it back, not be one of several mates.”
I blinked at him but didn’t really see him. I wasn’t sure if it was because tears were in my eyes or if my brain just unplugged.Maybe I felt like I was seeing him for the first time or just couldn’t process what I was hearing?
I wasn’t sure and I didn’t know how long I was like that, his hand touching my arm snapping me out of it. I was out of the bed with the sheet before I even realized it. I grabbed my robe and slippers.
“Sagan, wait,” he said as I heard rustling and then what sounded like him trying to get dressed. “I’m sorry that was—”
It didn’t matter. I was already at the main door to my suite and covered. I opened the door and tried to keep calm as I met the gaze of the guard I saw first. “Please escort the Alpha Heir to his room and then talk to whomever about making arrangements for him to stay at a hotel until his interview. Also, he’s to be removed from those allowed in the residence wing.”
“Sagan, hold up,” Thorn growled as he hurried after me.
I moved out of the way in time so he couldn’t touch me, but I also couldn’t look at him. “I apologize for misunderstanding the situation and wish you all the best. I hope you accomplish the goals you desire and will do my best to handle it all fairly as your queen.”
I turned and walked away, ignoring when he called after me… And went right for Treena’s room.
She seemed to sense my upset or maybe smelled that I was there because the door flew open and she hurried me inside. She was furious as I told her what happened as I tried to ignore that I was blinking back tears.
“Fuck him,” she said when I was done. “No one said you have to take multiple mates.”
But we both knew she didn’t believe that any more than I did.
“I don’t even blame him if he can’t handle that,” I whispered. “I wouldn’t either, but then why be possessive with me? Whymake a scene that Onyx saw me naked? Why take the potion and come find me?”
“Because men are fucking stupid,” she sighed. “He wants you but not what that means for his life.”
“I hate this. I hate this so much and all of them for making me do this,” I choked out, finally saying what I’d been hiding and trying to swallow down. “I hate my parents for leaving me in this position and not loving me. I hate them for not preparing me emotionally or giving me the tools to understand this part of life. I hate everything as it is.”
She hugged me as I broke down crying.
Well, broke down for me. There were tears. I didn’t make noise. Tears fell as I just stared off and tried to get a grip.
Yes, I was that broken emotionally that I couldn’t even cry normally.
I think most people would hate their parents for that too.
7
Sagan
After I was sure Thorn was gone, I went back into my suite and decided to go train. If there was ever a time to get some energy out, it was right then and it was still early.
I wanted to groan at my choice when I walked in and immediately locked on Benson squatting more than seemed possible. I counted the plates and realized he was at max before the bar could break. All of it was different than what most would be using to given we were dragons and had our own everything.
And the plates had magic on them to make them heavier than normal. Otherwise, it wasn’t physically possible to get that on the same bar no matter how much we could lift.
