Page 153 of Benji


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She’s wearing this long brown skirt with tiny flowers on it and a pink tank top knotted at her waist. It leaves a thin strip of skin showing, making me ache every time I steal a glimpse.

God, I can’t stop staring at her.

The way her hair moves, the way her eyes find mine again like she never lost them.

And fuck me.

This right here? This is something I thought I’d lost. It’s something I’ve dreamed about.

Over and over again.

Three years of empty nights and long drives and too much whiskey and not enough sleep—and every time I let my mind wander, it came back to this.

To her in my arms.

Dancing.

Smiling at me like I’m still hers.

Only every time I woke up?

She wasn’t there.

That’s on me, though.

All of it.

I know that now.

I own it.

I’ve lived with it.

And now? Now, I’m gonna fix it.

My jaw tightens as I pull her a little closer, my hand firm at her waist.

I’ll tell her.

All of it.

Everything I know now.

Everything I got wrong.

But not tonight.

She’s not ready.

Hell, maybe I’m not either.

So I do what she asked.

I dance.

And my chest feels so goddamn tight I can barely breathe.

Like something’s building inside me—pressure, hope, fear—all twisted together into something I don’t know how to control.