“Whatif I said yes?” Ethan taunted.
Beau’scock went stiff instantly. His body was perfectly in tune with the idea ofturning Ethan around and impaling him. But was that what Ethan wanted? Shit,was that what Beau wanted for his first time?
“Can’tdo it, can you?” Ethan snarled, trying to push him away.
Beaubacked off, his own emotions at war inside of him. Did he want Ethan to pushhim away? No. Did he want to give in to this urge and potentially damage allthat he’d worked to establish between them?
“No,”Beau said suddenly. “I can’t fucking do it. I’m not that guy, E.” It wasnothing but the truth. Funny how admitting something so personal felt like he’dsliced open his chest and given Ethan direct access to his heart.
“Why?Because you think I’m a fucking pussy?”
Beaunearly stumbled from the shock of Ethan’s statement. “Where the hell would youcome up with that idea?”
Astorm cloud of emotions darkened Ethan’s eyes and Beau moved closer,desperately wanting to hear this. But, just as he expected, Ethan didn’telaborate.
“Fuckingforget it,” Ethan growled.
Beaucleared the distance between them in an instant, once again pushing Ethan upagainst the truck, his mouth hovering just a breath away from Ethan’s. “I don’twant to forget it. Why the hell would you think that?”
AgainEthan didn’t answer, and Beau knew if there was any hope at salvaging this, hewas going to have to talk Ethan down. The man had a trigger-happy temper forwhatever reason, but until Beau could get him to open up, he knew he had hiswork cut out for him.
Henever backed down from a challenge. Especially one that was so damned importantto him.
“Iwant to spend time with you,” Beau admitted, hoping that, by opening up alittle, he’d bridge some of the chasm that had formed between them last nightwhen Blake had shown up to ruin the entire night.
“Thatso?” Ethan asked skeptically, some of the agitation in his tone cooling. “Kindalike I needed you last night?”
Beauknew Ethan was trying to punish him for leaving. He didn’t necessarily blamehim. It had taken more willpower than he thought he possessed just to driveaway. But he’d known it was the right thing to do.
“Yes,it is so.” Beau was all for trying to reason with Ethan, but he wasn’t up forarguing with him. He’d learned a long time ago that the guy would only do whathe wanted. For months, Beau had sat by patiently waiting for the moment Ethangave in to what was brewing between them. Now that that day had come and gone,he wasn’t willing to let him go that easily, but he also wasn’t going to fighthim on it.
“Sorry,I’m busy,” Ethan said harshly.
WhenEthan tried to pull away, Beau quickly grabbed his wrists, lifting his handsand pressing them securely against the door behind him, holding him in place.
“Isthis really what you want?” Beau asked seriously.
Hewas tired of playing games. If Ethan wanted to do this, to put a halt to thisextraordinary thing happening between them then Beau would back away. Nothappily, but he wasn’t up for the bullshit that came along with following Ethanlike a fucking puppy.
Heknew what sparked between them. Had felt it firsthand. He also knew that whatthey’d shared didn’t happen every day to every person. But if Ethan was toofucking stubborn to realize that, Beau would walk away. It was all he had tooffer at the moment. Falling in love with someone didn’t mean he had to let goof his pride.
“Whatdoyouwant?” Ethan asked, his eyes narrowed on Beau’s face.
“You,”he replied simply.
“Thatdidn’t seem to be the case last night,” Ethan retorted with an abundance offrustration ringing clearly in Beau’s ears.
Beausucked in a deep breath, trying to hold his anger inside. He wasn’t the type tofly off the handle without some serious provocation, but for some reason theanger was on a rapid boil and threatening to overflow at any second. “Then youdon’t remember things quite the way I do,” Beau said calmly, choking back therage that was threatening to spew forth.
Hehad to get Ethan over the fact that he’d left. It was time that they moved on.That was one thing he noticed about Ethan, he clung to things from the past,let them build until chaos drown out anything reasonable. It explained a lotabout the man.
“Iremember asking you to stay. I also remember you walking away.”
Beauheard the words, heard the pain in Ethan’s delivery. He also noticed that,although Ethan was pissed, he wasn’t trying to pull away. That was a good sign.
“Iremember your cock in my ass,” Beau said, keeping his voice low and even, hiseyes trained on Ethan’s. “I remember you sucking my dick until I thought myhead was going to explode.” Beau lifted Ethan’s wrists a little higher as heleaned in close. “I remember wanting to fuck you until neither one of us couldsee straight. To find out for myself just what it feels like to be deep insideof you.” Beau paused, letting his breath fan over Ethan’s lips. “I’m stillwaiting to find out. So, you’re right. We don’t remember it the same.”
Theirregular rhythm of Ethan’s breathing told Beau he was just as affected by hisdescriptive recollection as he was.
