She laughed, half sobbed, and sank into me when she stopped, and I removed my fingers and spun her around so she faced me. Her eyes were half closed, her lips parted, her cheeks flushed. But damn. I loved the hell out of this woman.
“Oh my god, Noah. That was crazy. I’ve never… that was so long.”
“I know.” I grinned, moaning when she rocked against my erection. My vision blackened with how good that brush felt. I tensed. “Shit.”
Em did it again, a naughty look on her face as she rubbed herself on my cock. Her eyes lit up as she sat up straighter. Her eyes were wild, her cheeks pretty with a pink blush, but she smiled a wicked, naughty grin. “You look a little tense, Noah.”
“Yeah, well I have this super-hot woman on my cock right now. And I’m trying to be a good guy.”
“Noah, you are the best guy in the world.” She frowned, ran a hand over my hair, and massaged my head. I leaned into her touch, a weak puppy desperate for her touch.
I was pretty sure I growled.
“You are… I don’t have words for how much I care about you. How amazing you are. Howselflessyou are.”
Her words reached into my soul and wrapped around me, but my flags went off.No this is about her. About Em.I cleared my throat and used every ounce of strength I had to focus on her.
“Em, tonight is about you, not me.”
“Yeah, but I want to touch you, so let me.”
I grinned. “Okay, kinda hot when you’re bossy with me.”
She smiled back and ground on me again. “I want to feel you, Noah. Inside me. I need to feel you stretch me, and I want this. Please?”
I froze.
I was trying to go slow. Not rush. But this felt big. “Em?—“
“Please don’t. If you’re not into me, then I understand but I can feel how much you want me, want this, Noah. I love yo—being with you. I want this.”
I wanted nothing more than to sink into her and finally feel her, but I wanted her to be sure. And, not in a tub. “Em, honey, we can slow down.”
“I don’t want to slow down.” Her tone got testy. “I want you. I’m in this with you. Why wait?”
“Because I can’t fuck this up with you. I can’t lose you. I can’t risk it at the fuck all, and if having sex with you could potentially do that? No, I won’t.” Didn’t she understand that? I wanted this forever. I wanted all of her.
“Noah,” she said, her voice soft and intimate. “I’m in thiswith you.Nothing will fuck this up. It’s you and me, okay?”
My heart pounded against my rib cage, the painful thuds growing stronger and stronger. I wanted her more than my nextbreath, but fear paralyzed me. I had my dream girl, naked, wanting me, and I froze.
“Noah,” she said again, moving so her face was right in front of me. “You’re in your head, and trust me, I know the feeling. I’m often in mine. But what I’m clear about is you. Miles. Us. Now, I’m gonna kiss you, okay?”
I nodded. The second her lips met mine, everything quieted.
Not the world—my head.
The fear didn’t disappear, but it softened, like it finally understood it wasn’t in charge anymore. Her mouth moved against mine with a certainty that felt earned, not rushed, and I kissed her back slowly, tasting and feeling and sinking into her.
She slid her hand up my shoulders, kneading and digging into me. Her breath hitched when I deepened the kiss enough to respond back.Yes, baby, let’s do this.
I pulled back only far enough to rest my forehead against hers, my thumbs brushing her cheeks. She didn’t chase the kiss. She waited.
“You and me, yeah?” I said quietly, the words settling into the space between us like a promise.
Her eyes searched mine, vulnerable and brave all at once. “I know,” she whispered. “That’s why I want you. I’m not going anywhere, okay?”
I kissed her again, softer this time. Slower. The kind of kiss that saysI see youinstead ofI need you. Her lips curved into a small smile against mine, and she laughed under her breath, that familiar sound that had been undoing me since college. “I might be in love with you, Noah.”
