“I want you, Fallon. More than I have ever wanted anybody. From the moment I met you, I have been like an addict needing more. And I feel like you want something more, too. But there is something that is holding you back,” he speaks with such certainty. How does he have so much clarity when I have none myself? “I wish you would take a risk with me, but I know that’s too much to ask. So I’m hoping you want to stay as we are, exploring each other, and when the time feels right, maybe we can take another step.”
The traitorous stinging in my nose is back. My eyes are watering ever so slightly, but I just about manage to keep them at bay. Every word that has just left his mouth has managed to split my heart into two. He sees me, like, truly sees the real me. That is something I have always hoped for, but never thought I could get. It’s also one of the main reasons I have kept my distance, not just from him, but from any man. The worry of showing my internal scars, and them running a mile away. Yet, I have a gut feeling that Luke isn’t like that. He wouldn’t run from me, but would run with me.
“I think I’d like that,” I whisper around the lump in my throat.
His answering smile is beautiful. He leansforward to leave a kiss on my temple before pretending to watch the rest of the movie. Once I'm pretty sure my emotions are under control, without moving to face him, I open up a little bit more.
“I will tell you what happened to me, but not today.”
If my ear wasn’t pressed against his chest, I wouldn’t have heard his small intake of breath, or the way his heart picked up and began to race.
He pulls me closer yet again before whispering, “Not today.”
