Blaize laughed seductively, drawing me in like a moth to a flame as she removed the vibrator that was coated with my arousal. “You just squirted, princess. Sixteen powerful orgasms in one session, and I didn’t use all my toys.”
She slid from behind me and I sagged into the bed, completely exhausted. My body was in sweet agony and my clit was so swollen, that the smallest gush of air made it hurt. I wasn’t used to this much pleasure in one sitting. Blaize tuggedat the chain again, and I whimpered, unable to hold myself up anymore.
“You’re such a fucking pain slut, princess.” She crawled up my body, the fabric of her slacks brushing against my sensitive bud before lightly kissing my lips. I whimpered, biting my lip. “All the possibilities.”
She straddled my hips, looping her fingers into the chain, lifting the metal up, causing the clamps to tug my nipples until I cried out.
“Ow.” She removed the left clamp, and I screamed as the blood rushed back to my deprived nipple. Blaize leaned down, latching her mouth to my nipple and soothing it before she did the exact same to the other.
“You were a very good girl, Kadence.”
“Thank you, mistress.”
“We’re done for tonight. Now we focus on the aftercare.” I frowned.Aftercare?No one had worried enough about me after sex to take care of me, but I couldn’t say I’d insisted on it in the past. “What do you need from me, Kadence?”
“C-can you hold me?” I choked out. She nodded, lying beside me and pulling me into her arms.
In her arms, I feel safe. Everything from the past few weeks faded away, leaving just the two of us in this moment. I turned to face her and sank deeper into her, realizing that she was still fully clothed while I was completely naked and vulnerable. I grimaced, but didn’t question it. I wanted to enjoy this while I could because the moment I left this room, was the moment I was alone again.
“I can hear you thinking.”
“It’s nothing,” I grumbled.
She shifted slightly and adjusted herself so she could caress my cheeks. I didn’t need to cry or show how vulnerable she made me when she had a stone-cold heart. She knew I was lying.
“I’m not used to this. The aftercare.”
“Aftercare is important and necessary. I could’ve fucked you and left, making you question your worth and morals, but I’m not that type of domme.”
“Would it be any different from what you did the other night?”
She sighed. “I didn’t want to hurt you. My rejection was for your safety.”
“I’m a big girl, Blaize.”
“Do you really want to do this, or do you want to keep digging? Once one of us leaves this room, that’s it.”
“You’re really experienced. I never knew my body could do this or that I’d like it.” She ran her fingers through my hair.
“I like the darker side of sex. I always have. Pain and pleasure go hand in hand together, making sex a little more intoxicating. It’s not for everyone, though.”
“Do you not like being touched?”
Her nose scrunched as I watched her eyes scan me. “Sometimes. Tonight was for you. I get my pleasure from watching my sub get their release. We work well together, but this was a one-time thing, Kadence.”
I tried to hide the hurt, but my face gave away everything. She lifted my chin and lightly kissed my lips. “I don’t love. I don’t express my emotions. This can't happen again.”
I nodded, pulling myself up with shaky elbows. “I need to take a shower.”
There was no reason to let this linger longer; I was only setting myself up to get heartbroken. It was what I asked for. One night for the two of us. I couldn't be upset that she wanted absolutely nothing to do with me after it was all over.
CHAPTER 51
KADENCE
The bed was empty and cold when I stretched my arms. I never expected her to stay with me, but part of me wished she was here, holding me and whispering good morning in my ear. It was more than she could give, but why was I craving it so much? Why did Blaize make butterflies erupt in my belly? I pulled the pillow over my head and screamed into it.
I was not the poster child for love and healthy relationships. When I loved, I fell hard, but I always fell in love with the worst people. Was it fate's way of punishing me? Why did I feel like this with Blaize? Was this how love was supposed to feel? Intense. Powerful…Safe.
