“No, Kadence. That’s final. Leave my office before I have Mike escort you out.” She finally gave in when she knew I wouldn't touch her further. She looked at me with her big pouty forest eyes, trying to get me to crack. Olivia did the same shit, but it wouldn’t work. I had to have enough willpower not to fuck her. Touching her this once was already fucking addicting.
CHAPTER 37
KADENCE
“Why would she do that?” I grumbled, storming into the apartment after leaving the club, completely embarrassed. I can’t believe I let her touch me in front of everyone.
It was fucking exhilarating, being open like that and vulnerable, but knowing no one could touch me but her. They could only watch. Of course, I was sure the main event was Annika on stage. When she said she liked being watched, I didn’t expect that.
“Kadence, calm down! You’ll burn a hole in the carpet,” Annika pleaded.
I had so many emotions flowing through me right now. Rage. Humiliation. Bliss. I was still on cloud nine, and the throbbing between my legs had yet to dwindle. More importantly, I felt used. She used me for her satisfaction. Was it to hurt me? Because she passed with flying colors.
“I begged her to fuck me,” I blurted, and then instantly slam my hands to my mouth. I think I was about to cry. “Fuck.”
Annika pulled me into her arms and pulled us to the couch. “God, why am I like this?”
Annika ran her hands through my hair as the boys walked inside. “It was your first time in a BDSM club. It’s very intense. I don’t know why she had you watch us, or why she touched you knowing that.”
“I liked it. Everything about it. It doesn’t even bother me that my now best friend and one of her boyfriends knows what I taste like.”
Annika blushed and Theo laughed. “I’ll be down for a threesome to help you get past Blaize.”
I rolled my eyes. “Nice try. I now know how packed all three of you are, and I want you nowhere near my coochie. Tiptoeing around Blaize to finally have her, just for her to reject me, sucked. It was like she was disgusted with me, and then she fucking kissed me.”
Drew sat down next to Annika, resting his hand on my shoulder. “Don’t take it too hard. Blaize can be intense. I know her, and she wouldn’t do that with you if she didn’t have some kind of emotional attachment to you.”
“Yeah,” Noah jumped in. “That’s the first time she’s done anything in years.”
“The last time she played was when her wife was alive,” Drew stated, and I sank my face further into Annika.
A wife?
Fuck.
I screamed into Annika’s thigh. Maybe I was being dramatic, but what else was I supposed to do? “I should’ve bought a fucking vibrator. If she won’t fuck me, at least I could fuck myself.”
“I have extra,” Annika stated.
I looked up at her with an arched brow and a perplexed look. “I know I just watched you get railed into the next century and you sucked my arousal off of Blaize’s fingers, but I don’t think we are close enough to share sex toys.”
“Not used, silly. I keep extras. I get enough pleasure from them, but God forbid they leave me all alone, I like to tease them with videos. It’s battery operated, but it’ll get the job done.”
“Yes, please, because I can’t sleep like this.” I touched myself the other night, but my fingers wouldn’t be enough tonight. Annika jumped up, scurrying to her room, and I looked at the guys. “Y’all really fuck her together.”
I didn’t know if it was a question or a statement, or if I was still in disbelief. I heard them, but I guess it was a whole different thing when I saw it with my own eyes.
They smirked. “Yeah. We fell in love. The four of us, it’s a forever kinda thing,” Noah beamed.
“Y’all get forever I get added trauma,” I grumbled. “I’m glad all of you are happy. It’s nice to see happy relationships.”
“Give yourself grace, Kadence,” Drew stated. “It took a lot out of Annika and myself to become happy. We went through a lot of trials in the beginning because of my issues. Trust. Communication. It can change the whole trajectory.”
“You think Blaize will actually open up to me?”
“If you let her. That woman is stubborn, but I have a feeling you are, too,” Drew said.
“Got it!” Annika ran out of the room with a light blue silicone G-spot vibrator with bunny ears. I looked bewildered as she giggled. Annika really was a ball of joyous energy. “You can always go for a ride with the real thing.”
