Nia walked up and started kissing my neck.
“You know I’m wit’ it, baby.”
Nia was always submissive. Too bad this was her last rodeo.
This was my last night of bad decisions.
“Well, I need to get fucked up.” Alana stood up.
“Do as you wish, beautiful.”
I switched the music to something dark with heavy bass.
I started rolling up while they drank and danced around the room.
Mid-blunt, I watched Nia grind her ass on Alana while she stared at me. I was smoking, still out of my mind, so I said, “Y’all kiss.”
They looked at each other, drunk as hell. Alana claimed she ain’t like women, but she went in for the kill first. Nia pulled Alana’s tube top down and caressed her big ass titties. I stood up and walked over to them.
“So this how this gon’ go. I ain’t fuckin’ y’all tonight.”
They stopped kissing and laughed.
“What?”
“Yeah, I’m about to watch y’all. You either down or you leave.”
Of course, they ain’t turn me down.
I lit my blunt, grabbed my glass, and sat down. I started watching them perform like X videos. Before I knew it, I had my dick in my hand, stroking it.
My mind couldn’t stay on them, though.
They were kissing, doing 69, moaning sexy as fuck, scissoring, trying to outperform themselves to please me, yet all I could think about was life, my future, my fuck ups.
The way Milan exposed my whole life like it was cute.
Me worried if Sade seen it and what she would think of me.
I was a rich nigga with failures and flaws, and I ain’t know how to fix them.
Now I was sitting here watching two women I ain’t care for no more, feeling like a lame.
I couldn’t think straight enough to get myself off, so I said, “Come suck me. Both y’all.”
I watched them get on their knees. Nia was deep throating me; Alana was sucking my balls. The shit felt amazing. My toes were curling, eyes closed, then the next thing I knew was thinking about Sade, and damn, that made me nut so hard, I almost called her name. I skeeted on both their faces, and they ate it up.
I sat there breathing heavy, eyes closed, not even connected to life anymore. I could hear them giggling. I was sure they had more fun than I did.
I finally got up and headed to the bathroom.
The first thing that came to my mind that never came to mind was:
I’m going celibate.
I needed a break from everything.
I got in the shower and leaned against the wall.
