Jannis nods in agreement and pops another piece ofBienenstichcake into his mouth.
“Your mother is nice. I was really scared before meeting her, but I clearly didn’t need to be.” My heart opens up.
“Yes, my mother is the best. I can talk to her about anything.” Jannis lies on my chest playing with my chest hair, while his long strands slide through my fingers. “We can talk about anything too, right?”
Confused, Jannis lifts his head and looks at me. “Is that a serious question? We already talk about everything.”
“We started once before, but somehow we got distracted. Are you still... um, are you still a virgin?”
“Yes, Danny and I didn’t get around to that. We... talked about it, but we couldn’t agree on who wanted to bottom.” Jannis tries a shrugging smile, the corners of his mouth lift, but it doesn’t reach his eyes.
“So you didn’t try any... uh... butt stuff either?”
He shakes his head decisively. “Just hand jobs and blow jobs, but we only had four months and couldn’t always see each other during that time.”
“So you’re a top?” Is that even a question to ask? Or should I just know somehow? Are there any signs? No, right?
“Hmm, I couldn’t imagine bottoming with Danny. Everything was already going too fast for me. It’s different with you. At somepoint, it probably won’t be a big deal anymore, but right now it feels pretty big to let someone in.”
My heart beats a little faster and my cock presses hard against my boxer shorts. “Have you ever tried? On yourself?”
“No, have you?”
“Yes.”
Jannis sits up abruptly staring at me. “Are you serious?” I nod.
“And? Is it... good?”
I can’t stop grinning, even though I’m sure my grin definitely falls into the “stupid” category. Stupid and horny. Not my best look. “I like it, yes. Very much so.”
That’s not a fire burning in Jannis’s eyes, it’s an inferno. He takes a deep breath in and out, opening his mouth again and again to say something, but nothing comes out. I understand what he means, that letting someone in is a big deal for him. For me too, but I want this, with him. My hole twitches at the thought alone, my back arches. I roll to the side, grab the lube from under my bed, and hold it out to him. He hesitates for a moment, then reaches for it.
As shy and reserved as he is in everyday life, he’s not like that in the bedroom, and I love it. I love that he takes control, that he likes to give as much as he likes to take. That he doesn’t only lie flat, stiff as a board, making me wonder if I’m being too aggressive.
Without warning, he catches my mouth, his lips pressing hard against mine and his tongue finding its way deep into my mouth. He supports himself with one hand next to my head, the other massaging my cock and balls through my boxers.
I’d like to enjoy it, but the anticipation of what is to come takes up all my brain capacity.
“Relax, or this isn’t going to work. And I’m going to end up hurting you.” His kiss slows down, briefly interrupted as he pullsmy T-shirt over my head. With warm hands, he draws circles on my stomach and chest, playing with my nipples, and I sink completely into the mattress.
Suddenly he stops. “I was too fast. I’m sorry. May I?” He tugs at my underwear, and I lift my hips in response. “So beautiful. So fucking beautiful. I can’t believe I’m the one to be here with you.” His fingertips glide down my chest until they reach my cock and wrap tightly around it. My body knows this touch and fuck, it loves it. Jannis starts slowly, but quickly gets harder. It’s everything and yet not enough, I want more, need more. I push his hand away and turn onto all fours.
Countless times I’ve jerked off like this, imagining Jannis kneeling behind me. When his palms stroke my ass, I panic for a moment, afraid of coming just like that.
“Shit, Dayyan, that’s so hot. May I really?”
“Please. Absolutely.” I hear the click of the lube, and even though I expect his wet finger, I still flinch at Jannis’s first touch. Relieved he’s not put off by it, I close my eyes, blocking out any distractions so it’s just the two of us as his finger gently circles my hole firing up nerve endings I didn’t even know existed.
“Come on, do it.” I don’t want to wait any longer, Ican’twait any longer. My hole twitches, searching for something, and I moan loudly when Jannis finally gives in to my pleas.
It’s a relief when his finger slips into me. No shame, no pain, none of the things I was afraid of.
“Everything okay?” I want to say yes, but my speech center is currently out of order. Something between a grunt and a moan leaves my mouth and Jannis giggles.
“Pretty good, huh?”
Jannis slowly slides his finger in and out, always with a little pull on my muscle. Never so hard it hurts, but the feeling is so intense I can hardly bare it. Suddenly he pulls out and my hole closes around nothing.
