ALEX
I restedmy forehead against Sadie’s, not allowing myself to give into what we both just declared we wanted. “I want to domorethan kiss you.”
“You do?” she breathed out.
“I want to be with you. Tonight. But…that’s all it can be.” Was I a selfish asshole for even suggesting that? Yes. Part of me wanted her to tell me no, to tell me that she deserved more than what I could give her, but another part of me, a desperate, primal part of me wanted her to agree to this unfair arrangement. “Just tonight.”
“Okay,” she agreed.
My dick swelled against my sweats, and my jaw flinched at the thought of pushing inside of her sweet, tight passage. But I needed her to fully grasp the gravity of what I was proposing.
“Just tonight,” I reiterated. “That’s all I can give you.”
Her hands lifted and cupped the sides of my face as she repeated sweetly, “Just tonight.”
Fuck,why did she have to be so understanding and giving?
The “right” thing to do would be to stop this now. I should tell her this was a mistake, turn around and go back into my room.
Instead of doing the right thing, I did the wrong thing.
I leaned down and pressed my lips to hers. The moment our lips touched my entire body lit with flames of desire so hot I was burning up. It was a stark contrast to the chaste innocence of our kiss. It was sweet. Tender. That is until her lips parted and I slid my tongue past them and met hers. Our tongues tangled in a seductive dance as my hands began roaming up and down her body. She purred and melted against me, her curves molding into my body.
Not giving myself any time to think through what I was about to do, I picked Sadie up, my hands full of her backside. Her legs wrapped around my waist and her arms curled around my neck as I stalked down the hall to my bedroom.
Our kiss wasn’t broken as I walked into my room and shut the door behind me. All the reasons this was a horrible idea were going through my head as I carried her over to the bed.
I’ve never been with anyone but Ash.
Being with Sadie is a betrayal.
We’d agreed to this being just tonight, but the truth was, this was going to complicate things.
Sadie worked for me.
She deserved better than a glorified one-night stand.
I wasn’t ready for this.
But as I lowered down onto the edge of my bed and she sat on my lap straddling me as our tongues intertwined, none of those things mattered. All that mattered was this moment. All that mattered was how amazing, how alive I felt. All that mattered was being fully present in this moment.
I wanted to feel more of her. My hands slid beneath her shirt and roamed up and down her back, over her butt cheeks and along the side of her torso. But it wasn’t enough.
I needed to feel her skin against mine. I tugged the T-shirt up and our kiss broke for the briefest of seconds as I pulled it over her head. When we were both naked from the waist up, our mouths came together once again.
The pace of our kiss had come full circle. What started as slow, almost tentative had quickly turned to a passionate kiss but now that we both knew where this was going, things were back to gentle and exploratory.
My hands ran up and down the silky smoothness of her bare back. I loved the softness of her velvety skin beneath my fingertips. Her hips rocked into mine as she rolled them seductively. I could feel the heat of her sex through her panties as she ground against my straining cock. The only barrier between us was two layers of cotton and even that was too much. My hands slid beneath the fabric of her panties and my fingers squeezed her ass cheeks as she continued rubbing her core against my throbbing erection.
I was scared if she continued, I might blow my load in my sweats. It had been over five years since I’d been intimate with someone. My stamina was shot. Although, I feared it didn’t matter how long it had been for me, Sadie was kryptonite to my stamina.
Everything about her turned me on. I didn’t even have to be touching her and I was close to coming.
In one swift movement, I flipped her so that she was laying on her back and I was above her. She looked up at me as I gathered her wrists and put them above her head, holding them in place with one hand wrapped around them. With the other, I held her hip to keep her from moving.
“I haven’t been with anyone since…”
Her expression softened with empathy and understanding. “We don’t have to do thi—”
