ALEX
In the backof my mind, I knew that this wasn’t the right thing to do. Hell, in the front and sides of my mind I knew that it wasn’t the right thing to do. But as I backed Sadie against the wall, another part of my brain took over. It wasn’t the rational side. It wasn’t the one that weighed things out and made measured decisions. Logic was not dictating my actions.
This woman brought out another side of me. When I was near her, when we were alone, I felt wild. Untamed. Unbroken.
It was only for a few brief moments, but in those moments, I felt whole. I felt alive. It was part of the reason that I hadn’t been able to get her out of my mind.
Her lips parted and her eyes widened as her back hit the wall. I lifted one arm and placed it on the wall beside her head and leaned forward.
“Imissed you.”
She swallowed audibly and blinked up at me. “I missed you, too.”
Her voice was so quiet, so raw, the sound shot straight to my heart like an arrow piercing it. I should leave. The position I was putting her in was unfair. It wasn’t what she deserved. But somehow, that knowledge wasn’t overriding my actions.
“Iwantto stay away from you. Ineedto stay away from you. But I can’t. I can’t escape you. You’re in my mind. In my soul. It’s like you’re part of my DNA.”
My admission wasn’t voluntary. I’d been compelled to say it.
Sadie was my weakness. My Achilles’ heel. Her presence was a truth serum coursing through my veins. I couldn’t stop myself from revealing my innermost, private thoughts.
Confusion swam in the caramel swirls of her amber eyes. I understood why she was confused. I told her I was unavailable, barely said goodbye to her when she moved out, ignored her calls and texts, then I show up on her doorstep with a gift from Disneyland, at night, alone, telling her that she’s part of my DNA.
If she kicked me out and never spoke to me again, it would be warranted.
“I don’t know...what to say...”
Her eyes searched mine and I wished that I could give her the answers she was looking for. Her tongue slid along the seam of her mouth and the semi-chub I’d been rocking since she answered the door hardened. I watched as she licked her lips and my entire body screamed to join her in the task. She was the perfect combination of innocence and seductress, and I was powerless to resist the temptation she presented.
“What do you want from me?” she asked.
If the pain and uncertainty in her voice weren’t enough to make me do the right thing, I wasn’t sure what was.
Leave. Turn around and leave. That’s what my inner voice was demanding that I do. But I wasn’t listening to the voice or reason.
“I want you. All of you. Tonight. I know that’s not fair. I can’t give you—”
My words were cut off when her mouth covered mine. Her hands slid up the back of my neck and she gripped me there, holding me in place.
The last time we were together, I’d told her that I needed to be in control. And I had been, but this time, she was taking charge and I felt powerless to stop her. I’d take anything she’d give me.
Her tongue slid past my lips into my mouth. With a mastery that left me dizzy with arousal, she kissed me into complete and total submission. I found myself drowning in the soft cushion of her lips as they pressed against mine. Her kiss was potent, powerful, and I allowed myself to experience it fully.
Even if this was all that happened tonight, it was enough. Just to kiss Sadie was enough.
If I were being honest with myself, just being near Sadie was enough. I craved her company. It was the one thing that nothing else, not even running, had been able to do. Just being with Sadie soothed me. She was a balm to my soul.
I kept my hands plastered on the wall behind her. I was scared that if I allowed myself to touch her, I would take over. I’d have her naked and writhing beneath me in a matter of seconds.
I’d loved having control of her in bed. I’d held her hands captive and set the pace of our union. I’d managed, somehow, to make sure that she reached release before I let myself go. And I’d loved that she’d allowed me to do that. But tonight, I wanted to give her something else.
Instead of dominating her, I wanted to give her free rein to do whatever she wanted. It was a challenge in self-control that I wasn’t sure I was up for. Each second that passed fanned the flames of arousal that were roaring inside of me.
The generous curves of her body were plastered to mine as her hands ran up and down my back, across my shoulders, and in my hair. When her right leg lifted and hooked around my hip the position pressed her core against my groin. Through her sweats, I could feel the heat of her sex and it snapped the thin thread of self-control I’d been clinging onto.
My hands flew to her backside, and I lifted her up pinning her up against the wall. Her legs wrapped around my waist, and I squeezed the fullness of her ass in my hands. When I did, she gasped as she rolled her hips into me.
The curves and weight of her body against my palms felt right. It was like her body was made for me. Every time I touched her, it felt like a missing puzzle piece snapped into place. I massaged her cheeks as I captured soft moans in our kiss.
