Day 65
With Theo Alder signed on, a new script finalized, and Gabriel Eclaire attached to the project… we can finally shop around at production companies.
I’m tired all the time. Each day it’s basically a new crisis to resolve.
Day 80
Audrey and I are meeting up more and more for after-work drinks. I’ve never liked a boss before. Talking to her is so easy that I can say one thing in passing and she takes it seriously.
Some days it doesn’t even feel like work.
Day 100
Audrey is allowing me in the room for a few of the casting calls. A smile has been glued to my face for days.
I can’t remember the last time I had a panic attack.
Day150
Who knew insurance and permits were the most difficult thing about the filmmaking process…
I sure didn’t. Somehow I need to set three days of shooting at a house in Calabasas, but there is no street parking allowed for production vehicles.
If there is, it is another fee. I’m ripping my hair out at this very second.
Day 190
I unblocked Aidan from social media today. The first picture I saw was him surrounded in a field of roses, on one knee at his family home in the Hamptons.
I downed a whole bottle of Josh red cabernet. I’m not even angry, just a deep-seated irritation settling in my stomach the longer I look at it.
Day 200
Holden texted, telling me he is out of his inpatient treatment program. It was only a “Hi,” but I spent the day obsessing over it.
There are so many ways to respond to “Hi.” Every response is lackluster and incapable of coming out witty.
So I do the uncool thing and never reply.
Day 250
Over a happy hour with the crew and Audrey, I may have divulged too much about Holden. Because all that is left is a spitting headache and the bad memory of me describing the styling suite kiss to everyone.
I’m mortified to say the least.
Day 300
After another lavish post of Aidan and his fiancée in Europe, I can say with absolute certainty, I made the right choice.
Our extensive travel only ever was the Hamptons.
Day 310
On the way to work, I drove past my old work building and remembered I hadn’t texted Lena in ages. Turns out she is working for On the Rise Media as of last month.
Every employee at Blackburn Press was let go. After receiving her text, I circled back to the office building and there was a “for rent” sign for the suite I used to work in.
Day 355
