Ice keeps staring at the door when finally, Spike comes strutting through the door, cool as ever. It's obvious that he's pretty fucking proud of himself, knowing that he probably saved Tiny and Emma from the tail that Ice mentioned earlier. He's followed by Tiny, who can't even look Ice in the eyes. I'm sure Ice will deal with him later, but right now, his eyes are focused on the door as Emma walks in. She looks like she has been through hell, and for a brief moment, I feel for her. I can't imagine the feeling of being followed by someone that I feared, which I’m pretty sure is what's going on.
Emma rushes toward Ice as he gets up from the barstool and moves toward her. He pulls her into a loving hug, and every bit of empathy I felt for her drains from my mind. I hate her.
"Caden," she squeals, "you are shmooshing me!" He laughs heartily, but I'm just confused. I didn't find her words funny and I can't understand why they are laughing. It must be an inside joke or something that I am not privy to.
"I can't breathe!" Emma exclaims and then I can see what's about to happen. The thing that I had hoped I'd never have to witness. The thing that I have been dreading since Emma came here. The mood in the room suddenly changes as the sexual tension between Ice and Emma burns through. The heat in their eyes as they stare at one another is all-consuming, and every one of us in the clubhouse has stopped and is now watching them. He pulls her close against his body and kisses her. It’s not a brotherly or friendly kiss. No. This is an all-consuming, passionate kiss. As I watch the man I love kiss another woman, I realize that he's never kissed me like that. He's never expressed that much passion with me. I can't take any more of this and I run from the room, straight into the kitchen.
I don't care if they see.
I can't hide my feelings any longer.
Oh God, I need a drink!Everything in me fights the urge to march back over to the bar and pour myself a shot. I make myself take another step toward my room and with every step thereafter the urge diminishes.
When I get halfway up the stairs, the last thing I hear is Ice say, "We will discuss today's ordeal later. Church in an hour. Round everyone up." He pauses and then adds, "I'm not finished with you. Stay put." That must have been directed toward Tiny.
As if my heart hasn't broken enough, I hear him climbing the back stairs and I’m sure that he is going after Emma.
