“What do you mean by that?” Roe asked.
I looked up from my phone and noticed both Wyatt and Roe staring at me. Then I realized what I’d just said. “I didn’t mean they were lucky to be with those two specifically. Also, I don’t seehow the way they spend their personal time has anything to do with me.”
“In time, Bash will try to charm you,” Roe grumbled.
“He might even offer you that threesome you want,” Wyatt also grumbled.
Lemon sent me a text asking when I would return to school. Then sent another asking if I’d want to hang out sometime if I was up to it.
As I thought over my response, I distractedly answered, “But I’m not attracted to them, and I only want to have a threesome with you.”
It would be nice to hang out with Lemon. Besides Mac, she was the only other girl I got along with. I was also still feeling cooped up. I needed to get out of the house. Maybe I could talk to Bram about borrowing some money and his truck to go out for coffee with Lemon. Just thinking of asking for things soured the whole idea. He had already bought me so much. I couldn’t keep being reliant on everyone’s generosity.
Feeling stressed, I set my phone down so I could rub my face.
“You know, I find it very disheartening when our girlfriend nonchalantly says she wants to have a threesome with us and then ignores us after,” Wyatt said.
I dropped my hands from my face. Roe wasn’t glaring at the door anymore. He was watching me, trying not to smile. Wyatt was lying on his side facing me with his head propped up on his elbow.
“Just like you nonchalantly said ‘our girlfriend,’” I pointed out. “Is that what I am?”
“Do you want to be?” Roe asked.
I thought about it. “I do, but I don’t know if it’s a good idea.”
They were quiet for a moment until Wyatt finally spoke. “Why?”
I had thought a lot about what Reid had said earlier. “Reid said I changed things. I’m starting to understand that he’s right.”
Wyatt sighed as if annoyed. “Fucking Reid.”
“You’re leaving,” I reminded them. “It was one thing for me to be your friend or whatever we were in the beginning. You three were still…you three. I was the outsider. I was temporary, because no matter how much I wished it wasn’t true, you three were temporary for me. So when I heard about your plans to leave Summerhaven, I was supportive. I was going to walk away when it was time anyway. But now things are different. For me, especially. I don’t have to be temporary. I don’t want to be.”
“You were never temporary for me,” Roe said quietly.
“You’re leaving,” I said again. “I had to be temporary.”
“It’s possible to want more than one thing, Lottie,” he said, sounding angry. “Why does it have to be either-or?”
“That’s true. You can come with us?” Wyatt suggested.
That question also proved that I had changed things for the three of them. “What if I want to stay in Summerhaven?”
“Is that what you want?” Roe asked.
“Are you going to stay if it is?” I asked.
He didn’t respond and he didn’t have to. I could see the answer in his eyes. He would stay.
Seeming to also see his friend’s unvoiced response, Wyatt cursed as he rolled onto his back.
If I was selfish enough, maybe I’d find that romantic. A guy willing to sacrifice everything for me. I’d clearly been acting selfish with my need for them and I couldn’t continue doing so.
I got up from where I’d been sitting on the bed and went over to the closet. Mac had brought me a few pairs of shoes. I had changed out of my pajamas into a cream lounge set after Reid had left. The only thing that would look okay with what I was wearing were tennis shoes or slippers. I grabbed the tennis shoesand quickly shoved my feet into them. I needed to get out of this fucking house.
“Lottie,” Roe said.
“I need some air,” I said as I headed for the door.
