“No.” she climbed inside the car and started it.
“At least, tell me where you’re going,” he said.
“None of your business. And if I spot anyone with a cut near me, I swear to God you won’t ever see me again. Now, get the fuck out of my way.” Her foot slammed the gas, and the rubber screeched against the road.
CHAPTER 19
Jo
I hit the open road and drove aimlessly. One of the hardest things in life was to have your whole world revolve around the people you loved, the people you called home, because when they betrayed you, your whole world collapsed around you. You became all alone. You had nowhere to go. You lost everything.
I’d have never put you on the pill like he made you. Be the mother of my baby. You’ll look so fucking hot when you’re pregnant. I’ll graduate in a couple of months, and I already have a job. I can’t wait to have our baby, Jo.
I don’t want you to have his baby. You can’t be the mother of his child. You can’t be my brother’s or sister’s mother. It’s not fair.
If you’re going to have a child, when you’re going to have a child, it’s going to be ours. Mine and yours.
Once your period is over, I’m gonna fuck you day and night until I put a baby in you. This is happening, my sweet Jo.
I’ll never leave you, Jo. Never. There’s a way that will make you always mine and you can still have everything.
I slapped the steering wheel over and over until my palm hurt. Why did I always underestimate Tirone’s psycho evil? Why did I always believe that he’d stop hurting me every time he promised when he’d never kept his word? Why did I keep doing that to myself, staying in a forever toxic relationship with him?
Why the fuck did I, amidst all this fury and pain, throb when I found out he drugged and impregnated me in my sleep as if I was some breeding hostage used as a vessel to make babies for a monster? Why the fuck did I still love him and even think what he did to me, that massive and unforgivable violation, was in a way sweet?
“You idiotic, sucker for fucking punishment bitch.”
At least the monster, the almost nineteen-year-old boy, gave you a baby and couldn’t wait to start a family with you, unlike your protector, his much older dad, your husband who shouldn’t be afraid of having a family with you, lied to you and denied you the right to be a mother forever.
I blubbered ugly at the betrayal. I couldn’t believe Laius of all people would do this to me.
Baby… If I could, I’d bring the whole world and throw it under your feet, not just fill you with all the babies you want.
“Liar.” He knew he couldn’t give me children. Why did he not tell me the truth? Why would he make me go on the pill when my only chance to have babies was with Tirone? I thought he was waiting for Tirone to be mature enough to establish a life so I’d get to decide which one of them I wanted to have a baby with. Why make me wait if having a child from him was never an option? Why brutally deny me like that?
A wave of nausea hit me, and my vision became too blurry. I swerved and stopped the car, sobbing. In the middle of my despair, I grabbed my phone and called Michele.
“Buonasera, Tesoro. Come stai?”
I tried to control my voice. “Hi, Papà.”
“What’s wrong? Are you okay? Did someone hurt you?”
“No.” I sniffled. “I just… I missed you.”
“Did Furore do something? Tell me.”
I wanted to speak to move that boulder off my chest. I literally had no one to talk to but Michele. He was the only one who was fully aware of the nature of my unusual family. But if I said anything, he’d come down here and do some damage. It was the only way he knew how.
Maybe they should be taught a lesson. You’ve been protecting them all this time, no matter what they’ve done. But who’s going to protect you? Maybe it’s the only way for them to stop hurting you, too.
“Answer me, Jo. What happened?”
“I…I’m…” My shoulders lifted in resignation. “I’m pregnant, Papà.”
Now, he was silent.
“Papà?”
