My jaw fell, and heat assaulted my face. “Are you referring to…”
“Yes. It’s much fucking hotter in reality than in the books you read.”
My pussy clenched hard.Imagine a cock swelling in your pussy, getting so big it’s locked inside. You have all the pleasure you want as long as it takes, squeeze that big, fat cock to the last drop, and your pussy is filled with cum. And when you’re all satisfied, you let the cock out.
Pure, savage, raw hotness.
I bit my lip. Then I shook my head, yanking myself out of my sinful muses. I couldn’t believe how easily sidetracked I was. The world as I knew it was tumbling down, and all I was thinking about was kinky sex?
Damn you, wolf venom.
“And shifting isn’t always bad. It can be fun,” he continued.
“Fun? Looks like what you call a werewolf and what I call a werewolf are two completely different things.”
He shrugged. “When the beast is tamed, you’re in control. You can shift at will. You won’t even turn on the full moon. A gift from the devil himself.”
A shudder ran through me. “Damien Pattison?”
He nodded once.
My vision misted. A bigger shudder engulfed me. Then I couldn’t control the tears. “The worst part is… he didn’t force me.”
“He was messing with your head.”
“No,” I blubbered through hiccupping breaths. “I kissed him first. I welcomed his touch.” Embarrassment tore me apart, but I had to speak. “I liked it so fucking much.”
“That’s exactly what the devil does. Belle, it’s okay. It’s going to be okay.”
“How is any of this okay? When I came here, I finally thought I was safe, starting a new life away from monsters and devils. Now look at me.” I threw my hands in the air in exasperation and lifted my eyes to him. “I don’t want to live like this, so lost, so afraid, knowing I will die when I’m fifty.”
Silence fell heavy between us as he winced with my pain. “There must be a way out. Something to give the devil instead so he’d spare me.”
“We tried everything. The more desperate we were, the more he was amused and insisted he would never back down on our deal.”
“What if I don’t choose at all , just walk away from all this?”
“You can’t do that,” he said it as a warning, disturbed. “You will die immediately and never come back. And he will claim your soul.”
Tears hemorrhaged down my face. “I don’t want to live the few years I have left as a monster, Kayden.”
“Hey.” He sat beside me and took me in his arms. “We’ll make those years the best you will ever live. You’ll be loved, happy and safe. Anything you need, anything you want will be yours.”
That was beautiful, coming from him. The sincerity in his voice touched me, yet none of what he said soothed me. I raised my head off his chest; I was covering him with drool and snot. Then I dragged my palms away from his big muscles.
But our eyes locked, and I couldn’t move an inch away. Instead of moving back, I was moving forward, and so was he. His lips closed the distance between us with a kiss.
They brushed against mine with softness that took me by surprise. He felt nothing like his brother. Although I thought Kayden as an alpha would be rougher than Alec in his passion, the way he was kissing me, taking his time, brushing and pressing with impeccable force proved me wrong.
He wasn’t kissing me as someone he lusted after. This was a kiss of a man in love.
My heart fluttered, feeling every hidden pain that ever tormented his. Rena was his brother’s mate, and he was in love with her. All these years, he’d been keeping it a secret, watching over and over again when someone else would claim her, while he had to pretend he had no feelings for her, even work to get her to another man.
His own twin.
Kayden stopped abruptly, his breaths harsh and hot against my wet lips. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” He fled out of our embrace and buried his face behind the bay window.
“It’s okay,” I whispered.
