“I don’t need slow. Just you. All I need is you.”
I nod, soaking in her words and letting them register. Collie gave me permission to be rough and I’m not sure anything sounds better. Is this what healthy communication between partners feels like? Even in the small and big things?
She needs to know I’ll take care of her. That her body is still safe with me despite how carnal I feel. “Iwillappreciate your body. Every single inch of you, Collie.”
“And then you’ll fuck me hard?”I’ll never tire from hearing her be so blunt and bold.
“Yeah, beautiful. Not sure I’ll be able to stop once I’ve had my fill of you. I can already tell you’re an addiction I may never recover from.”
“Let’s be addicts together then, Easton. Intoxicate me with your touch.”
“I can do that. Tell me your safe word.”
I reach for the hem of her leather leggings and begin pulling the fabric down inch by inch. “I’ve never needed one.”
“Make one then. If anything becomes too much for you, I need you to use it. Understood?”
“Yeah. I understand,” Collie agrees. With her leggingslong gone, I urge her to sit up and raise her arms, allowing me to remove her jacket and T-shirt.
“Mask.” I pause, her safe word resting in the air between us. We’re eye to eye now, drinking in the vulnerability between us.
“Why mask?” I need to know.
Her bright blues soften and fall closed for a moment. The stillest of moments before she speaks truth into the silence. “We’ve both been living behind a mask. In different ways; yet we’re the same. You make me feel defenseless, Easton. In the best way possible. Like if I let you see the real me, you’ll accept me like a gift. Not a burden. Not some dead end. There’s no faking it with you. And the most terrifying part is that I’m not sure I want to anymore.”
Collie Meadows might just be the anchor that holds me under. The thing that keeps me there forever until I choose to rise. To conquer my demons and show grace to even myself.
I’m ready for it. To rise without conditions or false tethers to everyone else’s selfish expectations of me.
She makes me feel deserving of all those things. Powerless to her hold on me. But more so because she doesn’t put restrictions on us.
Whatever we are.
Pulling her face to mine, I kiss her with a care I hope she remembers. We mesh like two perfect harmonies. “I need you, baby,” I whisper against her lips. “Let me take a good look at you.”
Collie lies back, eyes dilated, drinking me in. I have to crouch to keep from hitting my head on the ceiling, but I’m too far from her anyway. I need to be closer.
“Jesus fuck. Never in my thirty-seven years of living have I seen anything so exquisite.” A light blue matching bra and panty set are the only things covering her most intimate parts.I trace my touch across the inside of her thighs, reveling in the way her hips squirm, searching and begging for me to brush across her center.
The sweetest pussy I just know is soaked and aching for me.
“This for me?” I run my finger under the strap of her panties and follow it to the apex of her thighs. Soft moans fill the confines of the van, and I can’t wait to hear them only escalate.
“And for me,” she gloats. “I have a bit of a collection.”
“Hmm.” My finger slips underneath the fabric closest to her core and her body bucks at the contact. “Stay still, beautiful. Wouldn’t want you to make a mess of yourself before I have a chance to play with you.”
Leaning forward, I ghost my lips up the softness of her legs from calf to curves, studying the design of her shape. The time Collie spends as a fitness instructor models the way her muscles form at the dip of her hips.
I’ve never felt something so divine in my life.
“Please, Easton.” I inhale as my nose dusts the damp spot of her panties, loving the way she knows what I’m thinking before I can say it. “Eat my pussy. You know how much I love your mouth on me.”
Well, goddamn.
Pulling the wet fabric to the side, I plunge my tongue inside her, forceful and deep before swiping up her center. “Greedy fucking cunt. You can hardly take it, can you? Knowing how powerless you’ll be to my cock.”
“I can’t wait.” Her moans get edgier by the second, but weak in execution. “I’m on the pill, too. And clean. So, you can fuck me raw.”
